一个人

有一段时间，没有一个人做一件事了。一个人吃午饭，一个人逛街，一个人在学院乱走一番，一个人在图书馆发呆，一个人处理文件，一个人解决问题，一个人去认识新朋友，一个人去上课等等。这几个月都有他的陪伴，无论做什么都有他的陪伴。所以，我有点忘了一个人的感觉。我不想变得很依赖他。我不要太依赖他。就这样。

有一位艺人说过，因为她之前太过依赖丈夫，任何事情都准备得妥妥当当，现在只剩她一个人了，她觉得她变成了一个什么也不会的白痴。

随便写写。

为什么要同情不会同情，不会为他人着想的人？

Now and then

I was once so lost and almost do something wrong.

I attended the Personal Development Portfolio/Planning (PDP) talk this afternoon. It turned out okay, thank god. Initially, I thought we are suppose to choose our PDP mentor as well during the talk but not, just a talk about self developing. At some point, the speaker mentioned that according to an interview or an article, an employer said that the fresh graduates these days have terrible attitude. He even emphasized TERRIBLE. So, at that moment, I was really clear that our generation's attitude is really terrible compared to my parent's generation. The reason of that is that the current generation has very high demand. Hmm that's very true. For an example, kids nowadays owned an iPod/iPhone/iPad, even those who can't speak well they already have a sophisticated gadget in their hands. So young, so very young but having the best gadget in their hands, what about in the future? When they grow up, what are they going to play? When they are so young, they already have something so good to play with. What about the future? When they are going out to work and earn money, I don't think they will accept a low position job/salary job. I meant who will ever wanna work like a cow to earn small amount of money when they already have Apples since they are young.

How can I end this post? This post is just like the upcoming generation, so uncertain, so blurred. Where should we start to end all these before things become worse? From ourselves perhaps. People said a picture worth a thousand words, now can I say a person change can change the world? Pay it forward. A person changed can lead more people to change and then slowly the world change. Possible?

Blahh. Just saying but I still hope that the upcoming generation will be better not only in the sense of technology but society and personality.

Kthxbai.

Madness

Today is the second day of Orientation. I can conclude that orientation is just another boring event to attend. I prefer short and simple orientation instead of giving plenty of talks that sounds like a lullaby. I even fell asleep during one talk yesterday.

So today I got my timetable. My CRAZIEST timetable ever. I have been studying for 12 years and this is the craziest timetable I have ever seen. Monday classes from 8am to 8pm. Of course there are breaks in between but EIGHT AT NIGHT? I was like...wow. My friend beside me was like staring at me...and we both remained silent and then we complain to each other. One more thing, I have to stay in Bio Lab for 4hours? Wtheck. I never like practical since last year. Practical is damn stressful to me especially during the practical test. Oh god, nobody knows how nervous and worried I was. Now, I need to stay in the lab for 4hours. Just great.

Once I got my timetable, the first thing came to my mind was can I cop with this? Can I? Is food science and nutrition the right choice for me? Can I score well in exams? So many questions. Now I feel like flying to Australia next year is just another difficult thing to achieve...

Oh wells. Just bare with it. This is what I wanted to do, something related to human health. Food science, yes. Nutrition, yes. I've got no where to run.

Good luck to myself.

总是在某某事的之间。总是要做出一个抉择。

Phases in life

Tomorrow onwards, I am officially an University student. Time flies isn't it? I felt like everything just happened, from SPM to SAM until now, finally doing my degree on Food Science and Nutrition. It's just another phase in my life, a higher phase in life, doing something really important to me and my future. Hopefully, in this year I can hit the target overseas universities want and fly off next year! Just hope. Thus, this year I have to study hard. I said that every year, before I start any courses and every year my results turned out average. Not even above average. #dafuq.

Oh wells. Hope things goes well tomorrow!

Lakeside please be good to me and my wallet.

初恋

初恋，都是甜蜜的。 这句话，应该听了几百遍吧。即使不甜蜜，也不会被忘记。我一直有相去忘掉我的初恋，但是一直都办不到。他还是会时不时在我脑袋里 ‘漫步’。还是会记得当年发生的小事。还是会不经意地想去知道他现在的近况。我会在想，他会不会也不经意地想起我呢？不是要被想念或是知道我在他心中的分量。因为这些一点也不重要了。但是，就是会想。其实，女生的确比男生来得比较感性。这是事实。所以，当我知道他不再想起我，即使没有问凭猜测，有时候还是会觉得有点不公平。毕竟曾经在一起。现在的他，我可以肯定他已经把我给忘了，把我给放下了，把握放在后头了，决定迈进，投入另一个感情，就和我一样。我想祝福他，我希望他会比以前成熟。

我有一个朋友问过我：为什么一定要忘记？不可以把它留在心里吗？我沉默。

但是，我已决定不会强迫我自己把他给忘了，就让他在我脑海里静坐吧。

你教会我太多了。

尊重

尊重，它迷失了方向。渐渐走向深山椰林，寻找着出路。

随便写写

这城市装满我的成功，失败，欢笑，泪水，埋怨，沉默，回忆，错失，过错等等。 若不安静下来思考，这一切都会渐渐地被遗忘。被我自己遗忘。这城市，多么地复杂，而且是越来越复杂。科技越来越发达，人类越来越贪心，人心越来越冷漠，人与人之间越来越遥远，人与人之间的沟通越来越少，人与科技已经无法被切断，科技与人似乎比人与人之间的关系来得更亲密。任何的传统，渐渐地被遗忘淘汰。 或许你会觉得我很老土，但是看着这一切一切的发生，人与人之间的悲剧，人与科技太密切的关系，我会觉得如果以前的传统还存在或许会使现在的世界变得平静一些。或许你也能说我在转牛角尖。也因为这样我才会瞬间觉得不快乐，情绪被打扰。

Of greetings.

I am very impressed that the Chinese family made their children to greet people whenever people visit them at home even if the children are sleeping or doing something else upstairs, said Puan Sulo, one of my Moral teacher during secondary school.

That's kinda true because my dad always remind me and my siblings to greet people in the car when we are about to enter my uncle/aunty's house. Few years back, when I was still young and immature, I always think that my dad is such a KING-OF-NAGGING and starting to mumble in my heart. Now, I am more mature and I can think better, I really wanna thank my dad for nagging me for years just to greet people. I want to thank my dad for putting this good habit in my mind. Right now, when I see people I know and visit the relatives I greet them. Perhaps some people will think this is just a little thing that is happening around us but hey, a good habit will lead to a better place and thinking. No? I think it's a big yes. Till now, I am 19 my dad still remind me to greet people when we are going to visit anyone. He just do it every single time. He never forgets to remind us. He is indeed a king of nagging. Teehee.

So, greet people with a smile. It's not that difficult to do so right? :)

"okay la."

I've got a few friends who are okay with everything. Almost everything. Everything someone planned or someone asked them to do something for them, they are okay with it. No other comment. Hmm. Just sometimes they will give out some opinions or so.

As you know, I joined a camp last weekend and I met a boy named Edward. He is the one who is okay with everything. The one of the purpose to join the camp is to be independent. We were asked to clean our plates and cups after meals. So, they are some naughty girls and boys. Not to say they are naughty, perhaps lazy or playful. They will ask Edward to wash for them. And guess what? Edward always says okay lah. He is always okay okay okay okay. How adorable he is. Haha! I think he is a nice guy for now and hopefully in the future too.

Also, a girl friend of mine - she is okay with almost everything! Enough said. Hee. xoxo.

Sometimes, I wish I can be okay with every little things too. Life will be simpler by then I guess.

So, are you okay with this post?

Just a superb random and kinda meaningless post. Lol.

OUTBAC

Of flying fox, hiking, kayak, obstacles course, water course, good looking instructors, good air, good food, good room, singsingsing, guitar, keyboard and God's babies - all these explain the first camp I join in year 2012.

So, there are a few things I would like to highlight throughout this camp:

1. Now, I am no longer lonely in church! I made some good friends through this camp. Woots. :)

2. I want to improve my photography skills. Anyway, thank to Kai Ern who allows me to take photos of all activities in the camp. The photos turn out kinda dark. ugh.

3. Wear the right shoe for hiking. Not Nike or Adidas but the RM10 shoe made from rubber! I didn't buy though but I saw the instructors wear it all time!

4. Never judge a book by it's cover. This line is never wrong. The man who came out the project of Outdoor Broga Adventure Campsite (OUTBAC) owns a Ph.D! We call him Dr Yap. Coolios. He invented the hectic obstacles course. *salute*

5. Please be generous to people. Enough said.

6. I've got a brother! His name is Zhi Ji and people call him JiJi. He is such a adorable kid. He is very talkative!
7. People change. There's a boy that I knew since I was quite young, few years back. Few years back, he was a very naughty and ridiculous boy. He always disturb people, he always destroy things and he don't talk properly to anyone. Also, he always got scolded by teachers in church. However, now, he is such a gentleman! He helps his sister to carry bag and he cares about his sister and that's very very obvious. I can even feel the love and care from him to his sister. Perhaps prayers do cause miracles to happen. :)

8. I met a long lost friend, Jun Ai. Smexy!

9. Something bit my right foot, somewhere around the ankle. Now, it's swollen. :(

Hmm. That's all about it. Short trip yet had quite much fun!

ta-ta!

很烦。

公平

我想，上天是公平的。别人有的，我未必有。但是，我有的，别人未必有。上天总是为每一个人准备了一份礼物只是还没被发现。写是这样写啦，要脑袋一直记得这点就有一点难了。 有时候，人真的会累。不是身体累。是精神上觉得很累。累得想放弃眼前手上在运作的事情，不管是大小事都想算了。

Dog Eyes

It has been a month since I join Yoga with my beloved mommy. Hah! The Yoga centre I go now is run by my mom's friend. Someone my mom met in taylor's registration counter I guess. This is - the power of Aunties! Okay back to the topic, dog eyeS. It's quite well known that the place I staying now has quite a lot of richie rich rich. After I attend the Yoga classes, I met some..almost aunties. They don't look friendly to my mom and I. They always look at my mom and I in one kind. One kind - look at you without turning their head/neck. They only move their eyeballs. I have to say, I don't like it loh! It's like both of us don't belong to here or so. Just look downnnnnnnnnnnnnnn at us. That's how I feel.

Hmm. I guess there are a lot of people own a pair of dog eyes who like to look down at others. They look at people in a kind. The one kinda stare that make you don't feel good. The one kind of stare that make you piss off. blablabla.

Please don't look down at people using that pair of dog eyes, thank you. Everyone has their own ability, don't judge a book by it's cover. Don't conclude everything when you don't know someone well. Please.

No offense readers. Just my point of view and some sort of experience.

The place I love.

I am a free twinkle but I used to go to church since I was young.

When I was young, I go to church to listen stories from bible, learn how to pray, sing songs and play of course.

Now, I go to church to learn something that never came to my mind.

My mom said that I am a simple thinker. I never think, some sort of. ==

Whatever. I start to do things that are good to me. Harmless to me.

To me, going church is good. The people are good. The atmosphere is good.

FYI, I really like the atmosphere in a church. Really.

Whenever I attend a church mass, I normally keep quiet and seldom talk to anyone.

Perhaps I talk a little to those I am familiar with and when people approach me.

So, basically I have only a few friends in church. Like 3 or 4. Haha!

Hmm but along the years...I don't go to church every Sunday. I stopped going to church for years and months too. There are too many reasons for this but definitely not my parents banned me from going. So, it's like on and off of me going church. So, I actually missed a lot activities and so in church.

...now I hope and wish that I will attend church mass every Sunday. I will try because I am a lazy person.

And I don't think I will go through baptise and become a Christian.

I have my own reason of course.

However...I love the atmosphere in a church.

It's always peaceful, cheerful, happy and it's a place that I feel so relax.

xo.

Friday!

So, after staying at home with my lovely and quiet shadow for 4 days (more than 4 days, trust me!). I finally stepped out the house and went facial with Chalsy. How a lovely friend she is. Hah. Anyway, we went facial. Random much? We were too boring in fact. So yeah, since there is a promotion, facial is to kill time for this Friday. Then, I dropped by at her house for a while. Next, we talk. That's what girls always do. :)

So yeah, a free day. I killed her boredom and she killed mine. Yay.