Forum

I just had my first English Forum this morning, same group with the girls I usually hang out with. All of us, everyone in the class, dressed up nicely and smartly and all looked well prepared for the forum. This forum is  included in our English assessment, each of us has 20 marks maximum. So, do as well as you can and gain as many marks you can. So, my group was the first one to go out and get our forum done. We were nervous, the moderator was nervous until she called our names wrongly and started the discussion roughly. oh wells. That wasn't the main point I write it out here. We end up getting low marks but thank God, lecturer is good enough to give us a second chance to do it again on Thursday.

Wish me luck.

hate this part right here

I never know my second semester in university will be this hectic. Hectic as in I do everything I am supposed to do but I don't know what is the point doing it except for the sake to gain my internal assessment marks. I hate this feeling so much.

Hectic week

This is the worst week for me. Worst. 

Sometimes, we just have to go through every shits.

原本关心他人的心变成了一股怒气。简单的想关心你结果自己被人当成了傻瓜。如果你想要说谎，请找个比较有道理的理由好吗？请你不要侮辱我的智慧。

原来，关心人有时候需要付出代价。

Mix Feeling

I was filling in the university application forms - University of Adelaide, RMIT, UniSA etc.
I was having mixed feeling.
I was thinking, I will be very happy if I get offer from Adelaide (my first choice for my current course).
I was thinking, I will be quite sad if I get a rejection letter from any of them especially Adelaide.
I was thinking, I will be feeling a little of heart broken in the same time if I got an offer letter.

I was thinking, will we make it through?
Long distance relationship has never been my choice. Never.
But if I really get to Adelaide, I can never run away from this.
Since the day I am with him, I wish for a long lasting relationship.
Who like LDR in fact? Who go through LDR successfully? I don't see a lot of examples.

I was thinking, will my parents be good in homeland?
I am worry of my dad's diet, health, work and temper.
I am worry about my mom's everything. She is soft-hearted. She is just too good. If ever anyone in the house never think with the brain...this house will be chaotic.
I am worry about my brother's studies. He is one typical boy.
I am worry about my sister. The most. Too long story to write here how much I care her and a little too much that even I can't stand.

mixed feeling.

x.

忘了

有些事，不是说忘了，就会真的忘了。
有时候，越是说要忘了，越是忘不掉。

有些事，不需要忘记。

Why am I still there?

I've been to university for about 7 months already. I still miss college life; I miss the classmates in college, so damn much. It;s not like I don't have any friends in uni. I have. I have a bunch of them, as crazy as me, as funny as me. I am grateful to have them. Life in uni is much more tougher than in college. The reports are killer. The assignments are still ok to handle, well trained during college. I miss my college Physics lecturer, Mr Ng even thought I totally suck in Physics! I miss him after looking the pictures in a friend's fb. I miss my Maths lecturer also! Gah, I basically miss everything in college. College is the best time in my life.

Why am I still there? My heart my mind I meant.

One more thing I miss a lot. I miss someone. I miss a girl. I miss my high school breast friend, Cat. I don't know how we get so close. I can't remember. I always do stupid things and I love doing it with her. We even pretended to be lesbian in Genting Theme Park, acted wet kiss on the ride then people start to pointing at us. Yes, we are that crazy. I miss everything we do. I miss her so much. I miss playing around with her. We are still under the same uni but we seldom see each other. She is busy with her studies/club; I am busy with studies/reports/assignments. Sometimes, life sucks. We seldom talk. We seldom go out together. It has been some time that we hang out together...it has been some time, really. She is moving on in her life, she never stops meeting new people, she is damn out going, she is damn active outside...

why am I still there? 


Life has to go on. It has to go on, no matter what.
Nothing is slowing down. 
I have to move. 

感情事

“凡事触动感情的事情，都会留在记忆中。”

没错。凡事触动到感情的事，就是无法把它给忘掉。

亲情，爱情及友情，没有一个是例外。

一位亲人走了；一个曾经爱你的人离开你了；一个曾经是你的好朋友变了

这些都需要感情。需要感情来维持你想要的好关系。

然而，我们永远无法知道未来，过后会发生什么事情。

直到我们放了很多很多的感情去维持一段好关系时，对方悄悄地走了。。。

那一种的悲伤或懊恼，是无法在短时间内释怀放下的。

其实，需要多久的时间来释怀，没人知晓，就可能连自个儿也不会知道。

我们只能给时间多一点时间来淡忘那些触动感情的伤心事。

I've got quite a lot to blog.

but I am on the wrong timing where I don't have the mood to do so.

rough enough

So, October is here and the first week of October is going to end and the first week of October has been rough to me. Real rough.