Of worry

Augustine Ow Ji Tsong

"Hey peeps, Dr Adeline is asking how can we help her help us in Biochemistry. She's really worried, as it seemed that our batch has the worst result compared to earlier batches this far."

So a friend posted this on Biosciences Facebook page. 

Dr Adeline is one of our Biochemistry lecturer. From the post on top, I am starting to worry, way more than Dr Adeline. 

For one reason I am worry about my Biochemistry more than Dr Adeline is that I AM THE ONE WHO IS GOING TO SIT FOR THE FINALS AND I AM ONE OF THEM WHO GOT THE BAD RESULT IN THIS BATCH. :( 

Anyhow, glad that Dr Adeline is worry about results and is WILLING to help us to improve! 

I rarely find lecturers who really care about students. Ok, maybe they are helpful but sometimes they tend to ignore your question as if we are asking some dumb-ass or shitty question. Come on...we are still learning. Mind sharing more of your knowledge? Like, puh-leeeez. 

So, how can Dr Adeline help us in Biochemistry? Biochemistry is one subject that full with pathways and reactions that happen in humans body. So, that also mean, every shit from Biochemistry textbook is FIXED and you have to REMEMBER every single steps and catalyzes and what if this enzyme is absent what will happen to the body etc. There's no way you can make up your own answer. The answers are all from textbook so we have to eat up the book and lecture notes in order to pass this subject. (My point of view.) 

I suck in memorizing things. I meant, everyone suck in memorizing more than 10 PATHWAYS that happen in body right? A pathway might take off one whole page to explain. Imagine that. Just imagine that. So, I actually don't suck in memorizing things but I suck in memorizing SUPERDUPERALOT of pathways and all of them are different. 

So, how to improve? I guess...more tutorials will help. 

p/s: Not only tutorials with FULL OF QUESTION and then ask us to find out the answer by ourselves. Please provide us with the best answers!  

Blahh. 

I just finish a session of Biochemistry and I doubt that I will remember it tomorrow. Geez. 

But still, I hope I remember everyday what I read. 

Wuuuus. 

Taken with toycam. 

内心

有没有试过突然间觉得很闷？

有没有试过突然间觉得心里不舒服？

有没有试过突然间很想跟人说话但又不懂要说些什么？

有没有试过突然之间觉得你其实很寂寞？

有没有试过突然间觉得很想哭？

有没有试过突然间觉得。。。莫名的心情低落？

现在的我，正在写着这片部落各的我，

觉得非常闷，非常寂寞，很想哭，心情也莫名的低落。

我很想找个人来聊天但我真的不懂要说些什么。

就很想跟人说说话。

才跟男朋友聊了一会儿，一直等着他的来电，但最后我没说上十句话。

只是我这电话，听着他的呼吸声和笑声。

我不懂他在笑什么。

我问他，他说我可爱。

我当时真的找不到笑点。也不想笑。

话没说上几句便挂上了。

现在想跟他说话，他却倒头大睡了。

唉。

朋友；

我不想打扰。

唉。

但是真的很想找个人说说话。

有时候，人就那么奇怪。

连自己想要什么都不清楚。

自己迷失在自己的世界里。

这，算正常吧。

最近，有点烦。

烦课业，烦朋友，烦自己；

什么都拿来烦一番。

应该是自找麻烦。

人嘛。

有时候，很无聊，很无助。

burp.

I am so sick of doing research for these few days (about one week). First, I do research like a mad cow just to finish up my Biochem assignment last week and yes, finally done! Praise Lord. Now, I am finding answers for Microbiology discussion. My goodness. So damn sick of it. The worst part of doing research is that the website/e-book show you  A WALL OF WORDS and you have to find the main point only. I hate that sooooo much. I hate reading from computer. I don't even watch drama/movie on computer and now I have to read every single word on computer and some of the words are damn small and packed. Double omg.

I've lost interest in doing research, I kinda lost it for this moment and my friend asked me to imagine doing that for the rest of my life....May I cry? Lol.

So what I am trying to say is, sometimes we do things is just for the sake to finish it and get it done and then wait for the results/grades; it's not because of interest. People always say do what you like. Rubbish. We can't always o what we like, we can only always like what we do. bahhhh.

Love does not exist without hate; Hate does not exist without love.

Enough of whining and now, back to discussion.

短发短发

Snap snap snap!

So I'm in charged in taking photos in the kids camp for three days in church. I have to say, it's tiring. I work, I volunteer to take photos in the camp from 830am till 5+pm from Friday until tomorrow afternoon.

The first day I saw the kids, I was thinking, this coming three days is going to be havoc no doubt.
Indeed, it's havoc. There's no such thing as silence throughout the camp. Lol. Expected though. The first day I was damn sleepy and tired to take photos because the night before i was rushing my bloody biochem assignment that took me about a week to finish! But the photos turned out quite good. And then, today's photos are much better as I got enough of sleeeeep. Praise The Lord perhaps. :)

I guess this is a very good camp for kids. The main thing they teach is love and forgive, which are the two things all of us need to know and learn and practice. Forgiving someone is not easy, is never easy. So yes, the teachers sort of train the kids from now...so, I think it's good.

All right. I just wanna crap and trying out the blog apps on iPad.

Hmm. Shall post up some photos soon I guess. :)

COLDWAR

Since I can't concentrate on my homework (too tired&sleepy). I am gonna blog!

I finally manage to catch a movie with the boyf today at Paradigm Mall. We watched COLD WAR, a Hong Kong movie about cops and cops. I would say that's a good movie. Very exciting! With Aaron Kwok inside, he looks very manly in the movie. He is not the normal Aaron we usually saw on tv, dancing gayly and wearing weird concert outfits. There are quite a few manly man in the movie like Tony Leong Ka Fai, Chin Ka Lok,Eddie Peng, Andy Lau (only a few scenes) and Ariff smth.

I have to say they all have good acting skills. Like WHAO. I love the way they act but Eddie Peng and Ariff are still new new boy in movie industry so their acting was okay. It was a little too much in some scenes. I remember clearly Ariff a ICAC officer talks like a PROMOTER in a scene with Aaron Kwok. -_- But anyhow, he looks good.

Ok. I am sleepy. Ciaoz.

我相信，每个人都曾经有一个很要好的朋友；但是，久而久之便成了普通朋友。我一直都有尝试着晚会当初我们拥有的友谊。我一直都有主动去和你说话，在面子书和whatsapp。 你从不主动来找我。只要我想起你，或是做着某样事情想起你，都会发简讯给你。过了一段时间，重复的一个动作，没有一丁点的好的回应，我问我自己，是不是应该停止这一切的主动。我觉得我的主动有点太傻。有点对他们来说是多余。

#lcwmc

So, Dato' Lee Chong Wei and his long-time girlfriend Wong Mew Choo finally tied a knot. :)
LCW is the world's first badminton player, he is known by the world, so of course his wedding will be the big news for this month. Biggest news in fact. 

What I am going to share on this post is that I see a lot people commenting about their wedding in every aspect. 

1. "Old people tend to say that if the wife has a bigger mouth, the husband's hard earn will be eaten up."
I saw this somewhere on Facebook. What-the-heck! Like that also can comment?! Everyone has their right to choose their life partner I believe and I too believe that none will like the others to judge their love ones. When I saw this status on Facebook, I was like..lol? Oh please. 

2. WHY ONE'S WEDDING MUST SHOW ON LIVE?!
Funny line I find. Dato' Lee is known by the world. Don't you think he has the responsibility to tell people that he is going to another stage of life? Or do you prefer him to marry secretly and then tease/curse him saying that he got no balls to show who is his wife or say that he has zero responsibility blablabla. Then the history replay - Andy Lau's secret marriage for years which causes so many aunties cried for him. I just don't get it. I think his wedding is beautiful and his wife too!

3. WHY IS THERE A BLOB SITTING BETWEEN THE LOVE BIRD?!
I laughed a little. No comment, too funny. I also think WHY? Doesn't make sense at all. 

Just saying. kthxbai. 

CONGRATULATIONS TO DATO LCW AND DATIN WMC. 

我该怎么说？我该从何说起？
这时的我，是多么的无助，

唉。

words

Words do cut someone's heart. 

The people I always hang out with will probably know that I sometimes talk without thinking or maybe I talk too much of nonsense. So yes, I joke around all the time. Whatever jokes come from me are plain jokes. I didn't mean to provoke anyone, its just for entertainment. I never meant to hurt anyone. Never. What I found out recently is...sometimes jokes hurt. I've been thinking how often my jokes can hurt someone. A few times. You might say making fun of people is not funny. I have to agree now.




And I did it again today.

Shall I stop making stupid jokes? I think I have to stop it before I hurt someone else and lose friends.
Then, that's the biggest and saddest joke in my life.

Also, I got the harshest words today. Oh wells. Lesson learnt.

Note to self: Tell a safe joke.

Tuesday

So what can I update? I always wish to be a blogger perhaps a part-time or just someone who likes to crap on the blog and then become famous like Chuckei, Cheeserland and etc. Ahaha! Joke. 

I had the best Tuesday so far. 

郁闷

最近，觉得郁闷。

什么垃圾嘛。

我多想天天开心，天天快乐。

但是，要面对的事情实在是太多太多了。 

我真的真的真的长大了啦。

该面对的，该自己面对的都慢慢地来了。

啊。坚强一点点。