义工 - Volunteer

今天是我和小丽第一次参与义工。这义工是我去的那间教堂主办的。

这一次的义工，短短的一个小时，真的让我大开眼界。我看见了我平时看不见得人事物。我当下的心情很复杂，除了复杂没有其他词可以形容。这一次的工作其实满简单，就是把准备好的南瓜汤和甜点盛给那些无家可归或是有毒瘾或是酒瘾的男女老少。是的，是男女老少。简单来说就是教会的会友准备了一些食物给又需要的人－free food。这次的参与有很多我的第一次，第一次把食物放在tray上成给人吃，第一次和我完全没有见过的人微笑，第一次服侍我不认识的人。起初，我真的很担心我无法把五六个碗放在tray上捧给人。我想万一我把全部的汤水给弄翻了，我就真的太对不起大家了。但其实没有那么困难。

今天早上便开始下起了长命雨，直到中午雨还是一直下，所以今天出席的人比较少，只有二三十个左右。听Gemma说，平时没有下雨来得人可以高达六十个。我们稍微准备了一切，大概1145am，就有人开始走进了为他们准备的食堂。

我看见了有很多很多老人。大概有我外公的年龄。他们有的脸上不挂一丝笑容，有的一见到你便笑笑打招呼，有的吵着要食物，有的开始和我们聊天但大部分我们都不懂他在说什么，有的很有礼貌，有的很开心的在聊天大笑但是嘴里时不时会抛出一句粗口，有的还叫我们一起做下来喝汤，有的总共喝了三碗南瓜汤，有的一直跟你说谢谢，有的会在你帮他收拾碗碟跟你说“that's lovely“，有的还会叫你一声”darling“，有的笑起来真的很可爱，有的很贪心一直要很多很多PIE。

有三位老人让我影响特别深刻。有一位在离开前还会把椅子推到桌子下，有一位老人一个人坐在餐桌上但显得非常开心还和教堂的负责人聊的很欢喜，有一位老人跟我和小丽说了一堆我们听不懂的事情，真的又可爱又好笑。

他们有的其实都很有礼貌。他们不会我们想象中的可怕。他们其实真的只需要多一点点的关怀。他们只要填饱肚子。他们最需要爱。

我，领悟了很多。

heartbreaking

First - #prayforboston

Then - #prayforhuiwen 

These heartbreaking incidents have to stop! The heartbreakers should stop doing evil things! 

#prayforboston

Two bombs were release at a charity run at Boston on Monday. 2 died and more than 200 were injured. 

One man who really really caught my eyes was Jeffrey Bauman. He was one of the victim in the incident and his photo is spread in Facebook. He lost his both legs below the knees due to the explosion. He is only 27 years old. Then, there were two little young kids who ran for this charity run passed away. Enough said. 

Nobody knows the motive. Nobody knows why. People run for good but the lost their life. Explanation, please? 

He lost his both legs. I am sure his daily life will be totally effected. I am sure he will go through a tough time, a long one perhaps. The parents lost their kids, I am not sure how sad would the parents, relatives and friends will be.  

The bombers were brothers, 19 years old and 26 years old. That even make me confuse, a 19 years old guy, at such a young age...he bomb the city and he escaped. His brother died due the severe injuries. 

#paryforhuiwen 

I got this heartbreaking news once I got up from my bed. 

Hui Wen, a 17 years old girl saw her mom died in front of her because the robbers stabbed her mom thrice. Enough said. 

#prayfortheWORLD

Feeling

I am here and my heart is at home.

I still care for my mother, father, sister and brother.

I still care every little thing happens at home.

But somehow, my mother wouldn't wanna let me know more about it.

Yeah, she wants me to concentrate on my studies here and care less about things at home.

But I want to know.
I don't wanna miss anything that happens at home.
I don't wanna feel that I am left out when I am back.

Ok, maybe I am thinking too much again.
But sometimes when my mother trying to tell less about something...
I feel a little sad inside.

She told me to enjoy my life here, appreciate these coming 2 years here to experience life with my heart. Yeah, I told myself too but I still feel like my heart is at home.

Hmm. I feel that I am lucky to be here at times but sometimes I still feel like I miss home a lot.

Maybe I should experience everything here with my heart.

Thank you, ma. I miss you.

Rant

Rant - To speak aggressively. 

Yes, I am going to rant about something. Something related closely to myself. Something related to my own gender. Something related to girls. And I think I am going to gain haters from this post and less readers too. Haha! Whatever it is, I am going to rant rant rant and rant before I get immune to this sickening thing in my mind.

I am going to use vulgar words because like that only got FEEEL. Bahahah!

"Fuck my hormones." - Mary via twitter.
"Fuck PMS, Fuck hormones!" - Jooey via Facebook.

Yeah, I bet most of you see these kind of fucking hormones status on any social media. I wanna say, I fucking hate it when I see all these. I fucking hate. Like seriously, your fucking hormones ruin your fucking mood and you really don't have to fucking release your fucking emotion on other people. Seriously, you don't have to do that. That's so childish and that is not cool at all please. Please, fucking not cool.

So, if your in PMS mood or your bloody hormones ruin your mood, keep to yourself and only yourself.
Don't release it out to the people beside you, the innocent people around you. And if you did release on your friend or people around you, don't fucking blame your hormones, blame yourself instead! You are the one who control your hormones. If your happy, happy hormones will be released in your body and if your moody, moody hormones will be in your body. As simple as that. Be responsible on your own act, please stop blaming your hormones.

If you really feel that hormones are the one who ruin your mood. Tell someone. Don't tell the whole world for God sake. That's nothing to be proud of it. You think youself got hormones ahh?! You think other people no hormones ah?! You think your hormones very geng very big la now!? I really don't get it. You can tell me personally. I listen and I will shut up. That's better, don't you think so? Posting online about your hormones is not cool at all! It is so sickening!

Yes, you might say "You don't have hormone meh?" or "You think you say like that you very geng ah?You never get angry one mehhh!?" I do get angry at times but I never thought of blaming my hormones. I blame myself for not being able to control myself, I blame myself for not having high EQ, I don't blame my hormones! My hormones are fine!

Yeah, fuck hormones? Fuck your EQ please. 

Now I feel better, much more better but I feel like I am such a bitch. Lol.

沟通

"人和人的溝通　有時候沒有用" - 《想自由》林宥嘉

想念

现在正在巴士上去上课。耳朵听着我爱的歌；脑海忽然想念着很多人，想着很多我想去做的疯狂事情。

我想念的朋友。我想念的教堂。我想念的嘛嘛档。我想念的泰来湖边大学。我想念的。。。很多。

而我想做的是来个疯狂到极点的疯狂派对！我想去狂欢一番！但是想了又想，身在这好像没有人会愿意陪我去这种派对吧。呵呵。想想就好。想想也很过瘾。

sing the lazy song.

I've got tons of things to do:
Online quiz
Presentation preparation
Lab report
Assignments due end of this month.

First, hello to April. It's my mom's month! Celebrated her birthday through Skype. I wish my mother all the best in everything, may God bless her every second, may her wardrobe fill with her lovely clothes, may she be healthy all the time and I miss her. :')

Next, two weeks ago, I went to a 2D1N camp with my course mates, to Aldinga. Aldinga is a suburb of city of Onkaparinga in SA. Beautiful beach, strong wind, strong wave and the lecturer who brought us there went for a swim in the huge wave. I was really shock so do my friends. Before heading to Aldinga, we dropped by at Hahndorf, a German village. I kinda like that place but I think it's a very dead and quiet village. Anyhow, it is a beautiful and peaceful place. We had our lunch at Otto's Bakery. And guess what! We don't have to come out any cent, Dr Carolyn paid everything for us, from drink to food to desserts. We were so happy so in the end, 5 of us (Lily, Ern, Yen, Angela and myself) ordered 4 different types of desserts, sandwiches and drinks. And also, in the end we didn't manage to finish everything of course. But we force ourselves to finish up the desserts. The desserts were damn gooood especially the Vanilla thingy. Then, after the lunch and beach, we go to our staying place, Aldinga Holiday Park. And guess what! Ern sprained her ankle while jumping happily on a trampoline and turned out quite bad. Swollen right foot and can't walk. Yeahhh.....After some rest and Dr Carolyn's help on Ern's foot, we go for dinner at a very cozy restaurant. The restaurant serves PIZZAS, free flow pizzas and a few bottles of white and red wine Dr Carolyn bought in the noon when we were at a vineyard. At the very moment, I wish the time could stop! The cozy pizza bar with great atmosphere and great people and great wine and great music and great weather..ahh, great combination.  I know it would be even better if there is a live band there playing music!

Things I wish to do in Aussie:
1. I wanna go to a pub/bar with live band! I love live band I love live music!
2. Travel around Australia.
3. Get a part time job so I can get extra pocket money and so I can do more shopping!

Blah. That's about it. Gonna do my quiz now.
Will continue the camp soon or I will blog more about my life in Aussie. :)

Ciaoz.