浪子回头？

昨天工作的时候巧遇一个中学朋友。

中学时期，他长得白白瘦瘦的，带着一副眼镜，一看就是邻家男孩，听妈妈话的。过后，我和他满谈得来的，就会交换电话号码传传简讯这个那个的。但是不记得从及时开始，我们慢慢疏远，他也开始加入其他比较不听话的同学，最后几年的中学生涯都是纪律老师的'猎物'，全校都认识的风云人物，不是逃课就是逃学。。。妈妈也三不五时出现在学校见纪律老师。

但是昨天碰见他，真真的看到他改变了很多。没有以前那坏坏懒懒的样子。现在可以说是一副人模人样哈哈。跟他聊了一会儿，我也很直接的说“你真的变乖了”。他也说“bad boy 的日子过了” 现在读着mass comm。虽然比人慢了一点但是好过他停留在那年头的坏蛋。 

欣慰。

衰

今天我做工 赚了钱 也掉了钱 

好。希望这是最后一次发生衰事 接下来的日子就拜托拜托不要再更衰了。 

Rant

As we grow older as we meet the reality as we ought to handle more things in one time as we have our own family to take care as we have a job to be take the responsibility, we have to let go something in our life such as our hobby or our interest. 

My mom just told me recently that she really wish that she can have a getaway from all the things around her - shit mountain high of work load (blame her working place blame her boss blame her lazy colleagues and yes I really should!), children (fetching us around tuition, extra classes, meet ups and some boliao things) and house chores of course. She said that she wish that she can get back to the things she love to do - reading a book and listening to the music she likes and most importantly a quiet place. 

What can I do for her? Ahh. 

But I can really tell my mom is a wise lady. She takes things easily most of the time and she always tell me everything happen for a reason and everything is arranged by the god there's nothing I can do or change so learn to accept whatever is happening around bad or good. I always get quite mad when she tells me all these because I think she takes things too damn easily lol. 

Anyway it's a good day today :) 

你干脆的好 我觉得恶心死了 

很生气 很生气

trashtrashtrash

TMD.

Chill. I need to chill. 

I can't let my boyf be right on that point. 

Sometimes I wish I don't need anyone by myself and I only need me, myself and the people who REALLY care about me or I can just live by myself...

Save up all the negative thinkings, unnecessary tears and unnecessary thinkings that disturb me. 

#trash 

没关联的事

脱口而出的话 无缘无故 忙着向人道歉 搞得自己的尊严在地上滚 

一直希望自己有很多很多艺术细胞 

一直很喜欢郭采洁的脸型和 那头短短带有帅气有可爱又时髦的头发 

多希望我能穿上什么都好看 即使是一件大大的 t-shirt 和 松垮垮的裤子 多么自在 

一直是那个主动维持一段友谊的人 好累啊 时常觉得无奈的不得了 我可不可以不管那么多 我可不可以不要有那么多的感情啊 我可不可以。。。

想说声 晚安

忘

“为什么一定要忘记？”

Rant 688

At times we try too hard to achieve something. Time to relax back and chill and do nothing and just let it be. 

Time will tell us what to do. People will show us what should we do. Learn. 

11/1 helped out in an event with three different titled talks. Very interesting talk. There are talks about your signature can identify your character and how to have a good and energetic sort of signature, how colour effect your life and communication with people. The signature one is really interesting lol. My first time working at the registration counter and I didn't expect there will be people attending these kind of considered weird topics talks coz I don't think I will lol. Then, a lady who is working told me that these talks are normally for those who are working and they are lost, no direction anymore and feeling down and these talks will give them a more positive thinking and know themselves more and move forward again. 

Rm50 into my pocket :) 

Goodnight 1229am. 

 啊

This is forever

 

And I thought I lost this personal photo album when I move from Subang to Shah Alam but I found it this afternoon! I am quite happy that I found it! I made this myself in the year of 2004, which is...10 years ago! As you can see, I put my very own face on the cover hahah! Thick face a bit. 

I have to say this album really bring back a lot of memories to me. The days I spent in tuition centre, my first camp to Tapah, the people I met in camp and tuition centre, my primary school classmates (std1-6) where everyone is not in touch anymore which is sad and photos of me hahah! Ahh, even though I don't look pretty in most of the photos, in fact, I think I am not even near to pretty hahah in most of the photos but the photos really bring back a lot of memories. 

- people change; memories don't. 

Falala

没那么大的头 不要带那么大的帽 

肩膀没那么宽 不要扛下那么多工作 

人 总是拉不下面子 死爱面子 不自量力 接受很多工作 结果把自己搞得累得不像人 累得五颜六色 结果发脾气 结果连黑黑 好像全世界的人都欠他似的 结果死命埋怨一天二十四小时不够用 等等 

做自己喜欢的事情 没有错 肯定没有错 人活着就是要做自己想做和喜欢做的事情 但是 喜欢和应该要做的 应该分清楚 应该把重要的排第一 什么不应该在第一位的把它给排在后边 待会儿再去完成 这叫取舍 但是 只是暂时舍去 把该做好的先做好 然后再做喜欢做的 这听起来比较对吧 

啊 往往说比做容易多多倍 但是 我还是得学着去懂得 取舍 这是我该学会的 

掰完了。

这一篇是给自己和路过的 我没有针对任何一个人 这也只是我自己的想法。掰！

Heiduejos

I can't imagine how am I going to survive when I'm back to adelaide again in February. I enjoy sitting in the living room doing nothing just watching tv, changing tv channels, munching on biscuits, sitting like a boss, playing iPad etc. I think I'm going to have a serious homesick later! Back in adelaide, after dinner, I will just stay in my room, facing the wall in front of me, facing the laptop in front of me, lying on bed facing ceiling, listening to songs and sometimes on the phone. Life in Adelaide is so much different from home. I really enjoy sitting around in the living room...with the sound of tv even though I am not watching it lol. 

This is life after all I guess. I am growing up and I have to learn to face things by myself. Like what my mom told me. 

Ahh. 

Priorities. 

How many of us manage this well? 

Time to wake up!