About me

I've been getting this a lot lately or I should say all these while, all these while where I can think and able to think. 

The fact is - I am fierce, inside out. 

I look fierce when I don't smile. I look very fierce when I look serious. I sound like I am fierce when I talk in a very straight forward way. I am fierce when I talk whatever that hit straight to the freaking point. I think I sound fierce now. 

Hmm I never want to accept this feedback about me. Come on, who wants to be fierce, who wants to have a fierce image? 

Ahhh. It took me sometime to accept this fact. This very fact that I am fierce. 

Tonight, I have to say, I am fierce and this is me. This is me. This is the real me. Whatever people say this is me and I have to accept it and I have to love me. 

還是這裡好 

今天好累。測驗就來了都還沒準備好。真的好鬱悶。雖然不是真是工作但是還是很累。 

工作真的只是為了生存。即使我對那份工作有多喜歡，每天重複不斷的做著同樣的事情，也會厭倦。 a

你不说 我问 我问了 你不说 我再问 你还是不说 渐渐的我不问了 你也不会说 最后大家都不说话了 

我很珍惜每一段友情 但是有时候我不得不放弃 因为实在是太累人了 说话都变的很束缚 

晚安 

Mood: Happy

I helped out Gelista, where I'm doing my placement now in a pregnancy, baby and children expo this weekend. 

I got this tub of Greek yoghurt for free on the last day when I took the chance to walk around the expo with Yen. So, yen said that she saw people eating yoghurt samples and she wanna try it and the yoghurt stall was just around the corner. 

We tried the yoghurt and the lady at the store offered us this whole tub of yoghurt. At first I was still asking about the price and where can I get it that sort of thing. Then she said "are you going back home now? I can give you a tub" I thought she was trying to tell us that we can get the yoghurt if we are going back home soon but I misheard what she said. Then she repeat again "ahh it's okay, we can give you any flavours you like...we have a lot of them" 

GIVE? Lol. I open my eyes widely and looking at her and turned to yen. Then we decided to be thick face and get one tub coz it's really good haha! 

Good day indeed. A free tub of Greek yoghurt! Yum! :) 

Can't wait to get my industry placement done 

17/3

Not doing so well recently.

I am full with negative thoughts.

I need something to gain back just a little positive thoughts that were in me.

Sometimes, we just lost ourselves. Don't we?

Shits happen.

Still hoping I will be fine. Everything will be fine.

Of backache

Today marks the third day of my industry placement in a nice cream making factory. Tuesday we had production so, Yen and I helped out the workers there of course. It's pretty fun I have to say, everything is new and fresh to us hence, we feel like we learn a lot. Well, we did learn a lot and try a lot of new stuffs. 

But I have backache now. Due to the long hours standing in the production area. Yesterday the pain was okay, today it's getting worse, it's quite bad I have to say. Ugh, I hate this. I am only 21. Still a very young age to complain about backache. 

I can't run but I kinda like running or I should say jogging. I always have a dream that I am able to run really fast. Oh wells, that's gonna be my dream forever. The pain at the back is really getting bad and I really have to get rid of the pain. 

The only sport I can do for now to strengthen my back is swimming. I love swimming too anyway. Just that the public pool is kinda far from my place now...but I've got no other choice for now. 

I can't do skipping rope too. I shouldn't carry heavy stuffs either. Gah. 

I have to swim, I must swim to get away from this backache. Not for the sake for running or hiking or jumping but at least get rid off this annoying pain at the back. 

Wish me luck. 

The little things in life

Recently two of my friends encounter some bad housemates who used their stuffs and eat their food without permission and they have only stay together for two weeks and the contract they signed was a year long. 

And then I realize and I wanna thank God that I have three very loveable housemates /friends/girlfriends and I hope that our friendship last for a long long time. 

We, I tend to forget to great flu about the little things in our life and I really like to jot down and remind myself that I am the lucky one and I should appreciate all the little things in life. 

Then I hope two of my friends can face the problem and be brave enough to stand out and talk to their housemates when it's the right time. 

Goodnight. 

9/3

 

MOK

星期五的晚上

今天好早就起床准备上学去。上了一整天的课，好捆，拖着疲惫的身体回家去。本来想小睡一会儿，但是又得准备晚餐，又想喝杯咖啡，又想到已经好几天都很难入睡，所以就打消那个念头了。

今年是大学的第三年了，也就是过了今年就要结束我的学生生涯，迈向现实的社会。我告诉自己今年一定要好好完成我的第三年，要勇敢，要用于尝试新事物，要较多一点朋友认识多点人，要找一份工作贴补自己的零用钱减轻父母的负担等等。当然还有把脾气收一点，独立一些，和学习好好和他在来一段远距离爱情，真心希望我们会好好的。

令我比较担心的其实不只是学业，不只是爸妈，还有我的爱情。经历过一年的远距离爱情，我想我真的不鼓励远距离爱情，那种感情需要的东西太多太多了。 当然，我们算成功保持了一年的远距离爱情，今年在来一遍当然我希望一切会好好过，但是未来是个未知数，突发的事青是在所难免必须很理智的处理每一件事，偏偏我总是冲动多余理智，对方也一样。那看来我们的爱情其实满危险吧。但是，我们时不时会告诉对方要有耐心，要心怀希望，要坚持当然要有爱。看是简单。让我告诉你，朋友，一点也不简单，真的不简单。我不记的从什么时候开始，我默默的想和这个他一直在一起，要一直在一起。但是，往往梦想都得经过种种难关才可以到达。唉，只能说，远距离爱情太脆弱，要面对的问题是在太多了。那三个月暑假回家，和他相处的三个月或少一点，是我和他在一起那么久最快乐的三个月。

换个话题，说说爸爸妈妈。眼看我一直不断长大慢慢变得独立慢慢得学习处理自己的事情，相反的，眼前的爸妈渐渐的变老，身体慢慢衰退，这种现象让我的心开始不安，开始迫不及待要做到更多能够让他们过得好一点的生活。。。世上没有一步登天的事，只可以慢慢来，按部就班完成。现在，只想爸妈身体健健康康和平平安安。

啊，长大好可怕！

随便写写

有些人只配当我们人生里其中一个过客， 有些事只配当我们脑海里某个角落的回忆。

朋友里面有多少个纷纷离开，有多少个失去联络了，又有多少个还有联络？

越是成长，越是多的人慢慢失去联络。。。变成最熟悉的陌生人。即使曾经有过很美好的回忆都变成了回忆。

失眠了好多天。好辛苦啊。好讨厌。我多想一躺上床就可以大呼呼的睡着犯，发个美梦。

怎么了

我曾经不喜欢这样的自己，太喜欢太在意一个人的自己。我会害怕如果有一天我失去那个人的时候。我真的无法想象。我试过把自己对一个人的感觉收这一点，对我喜欢的人我会有所保留只为保护自己，但对他非常不公平。所以，也尝试敢敢表达对他的感觉。但是，表达了，习惯了，依赖了，就会害怕失去。

i tend to stay up until quite late and the reason would be...i am not so sure about it yet.

i miss home.