I was at the position

I came across this tweet from a  teenager:

"you force me to do something I don't want and you expect me to respect you? You didn't even respect me by forcing me."

Hmm the first thing came to my mind the 'you' in that tweet she mentioned, most prolly is her mom or dad lol. Twitter seems to me a place for teens to complain about their parents/family/friends at times lol. They are still young but whatever, I just look down on them but I was at the position but I don't complain online, I write it in my diary. Very old school and I think it's better than the teenagers now post every shit online, let everybody read, let everybody knows your parents are 'torturing' them inside out, making them crazy blablabla.

Anyway, if I am brave enough, I would reply the girl by: "and you expect me to respect you by writing this?" if she is really talking about her parents lah.

They still don't realize the things, everything their parents are doing for them or what they have done for them. They never realize but I hope every of the teenagers that complain so much, sometimes too much will understand and acknowledge and appreciate everything their parents had done coz I took some time to realize about that too and I am quite regret for what I have not appreciate what they had done to me earlier, I wish I could turn back time and be a better daughter to my parents.

kthxbai.

其实我们真的没有很熟

听首歌

每当有着一股很想听歌的冲动 但又不懂要听什么人的歌或哪一首歌 选蔡健雅的歌准没错 她的声音总是那么舒服 那么独特 听了一首接着一首 

最后一份考卷了！加油吧。

余家辉

声音还没变 所以可以撑到最高音 未来还是个未知数

但是 还是想share

第一句 就让我起鸡皮疙瘩

说真的 

说真的 很好听 

又一个大马之光

Being a mother is not easy

This happend last weekend when I went shopping with friends. 

I was in a shoe shop, looking around then I heard someone sort of shouting or I should say talking very loudly...

I turned around, it was a girl talking to her mother. 
"SHUT UP JUST SHUT UP" 

The girl said to her mother. Of course, her mother was quite angry I can see. The mother was about to leave the shop, angrily but then she looked at the daughter...and turned back into the shop. They were arguing. I think the girl wanted a pair of heels that don't really suit her but the girl refused to listen to her mother's advice, so she yelled and told her mom to shut up. I was kinda shock when she talked to her mother in that very rude way. I was quite angry too. Hmph.

Then, a friend of mine was on the tram, she heard a girl talking over the phone talking very loudly too, to her mother too. 
She said "Mum, can I step on you? Motherf*cker! I am already 15....blablaablabla" 
Enough said. I need not to elaborate. 

Give me the truth

Give me one truth of this: Is academic result really really important? 

I will probably get the answer - No. Like what my dad always tell me, it's ok if you dont get A, as long you pass. That's the world's biggest comfort to me lol. I am no smart smart ass, I never was lol. My parents never give me a tiny bit of pressure in academic results, as long I pass, they are happy. Hmm I am the one who give pressure to myself during exam period. Yehh..probably because of my friends around me are smart and hardworking and score damn high marks in exams lah. That's why I will have the urge to 'catch up' with them so I won't be left out lol. Very Asian hor. Asians are like that I suppose, cannot be left behind people one haha. Am I right? I don't know why I've got this feeling that I must ' catch up' with my friends who gets good grades, perhaps I don't want them to look down on me. Well, they don't look down on me when I tell them my lousy grades, the close ones won't...but who knows right? Hypocrite everywhere lol. I think too much I guess. Ahh, here comes the application of this quote - Your biggest enemy is yourself. True enough. My dad asked me when I failed my Biochemistry last year (still, DAMN IT!), when I complained that why the others who don't go to class can pass, then my dad goes... "aiyooo why compete with others? why put yourself in such pressure? ah girl, why? " Yeah, why? It's just something inside me because I am pure Asian I guess. I wish to take this off, bloody annoying please. Why must I compete with others? Why why why? 

Anyway, there's still advantage if we compete with others - we will improve somehow lol. we will force ourselves to improve, like die die also must improve and not let them look down or at least we are in the same level lol.

But one thing I cannot take is that those smart ass act like they don't know anything. Walao, please lah please. Cut it off thanks. 

A wall of words. Ciaoz. 

Hmm, I think the truth for my question is still yet to be answered. It really depends on ourselves I guess. Bye.

HAH.

At times, I have a very strong urge to delete all my previous posts but I love reading my own posts lol so it's like after reading some of the posts earlier I don't feel like deleting the posts haha simply because they are too good each post filled with memories that I do not want to forget and I want to keep forever perhaps.

KELLY

KELLY,

this is such a sensitive name to me.

Yet I am sharing this, 

it is good. 

The first time I listen to this song, I somehow feel a little bit sad inside. 

Might be the rhythm. 

Rant

Two more days to my first paper for finals. I am quite stress out now. I study everyday...the thing I Do once I wake up is to study. I really feel like vomiting. Bahh I have got friend said "why so stress two papers only" Yep, only two papers to sit but I am really feeling the tension. The reason I am stressing out maybe that I put a little bit more expectation on myself, a higher aim for myself, that's why.

Ahh how I wish I am smart. How I wish...

星期一

有時候一聲交代都顯得太奢侈 

媽媽媽啊媽媽 我的媽呀 我不可以轉牛角尖

烦

最近有点烦。目前我在打两份工。但是比起朋友我赚的比较少而且比较累。我想辞掉薪水较低的那一份工作但是我不晓得我在犹豫什么。

但是打完了上半段，爸爸就回信息说，专注在一份工上，也好。所以我决定了，我要辞掉一分工作。

我想，我不是犹豫，只是想等一个能够support我意识里已经有的决定。 

开心的一天。 

晚安。

Hello

Hello. I drank a cup of milk plus a bit of Lindt choc flakes and I am too full now. ._.

So, I have been really really busy last week. Just insanely busy, I even stayed up one whole night to finish a report...hmm I managed to sleep for 10 minutes on the chair though lol. Everyday I have to submit something and in between I have a presentation, which went well. Anyway, I survived! Left one more report to go and I am free from assignments...which means, it's time to prepare for finals! 

Winter break is around the corner. I don't think I am going anywhere this break, which is weird! Coz I travelled to Sydney and Melbourne last year with Li and Yen...I haven't travel with Ern!! So, I will stay in Adelaide for the winter break and waiting for people to come and visit me! Mr Yap is finally coming! Kim is coming too! My mom might be too! Li's family will be here toooo! So yeah...gonna accompany them around Adelaide, going Hahndorf more than 2 times in one month lol. I am going to spend some quality time with Mr Yap, since he really put effort to come to Adelaide haha! Also, with Angela since she is going back to Malaysia and come back only during her convocation. :) 

Hmm. I am feeling okay recently. Much better after all the hectic assignments. So much better in fact. 

So much to learn...first, to control my EQ. I always failed to do so and then after a while when I realized I was acting like a bitch and then I regret for acting that way. Always. 

But I am me again, after the assignments and pressure lol. 

Goodnight & sweet dream. 

I have learn a lot recently. 

First, nobody will give a damn on what you have done to them. Nobody. Funny? This is the fact, accept it, swallow it and digest it and always remind yourself. To be happy? Give more and expect less. 

Second, nobody has to be there for you when you have difficulty. Figure it out yourself. The things that people can give you to help you are very very limited so in the end we only have ourselves to rely on. People help the people, birdy says. People do help the people but with very limited source. Enough said. 

Stay strong and ciaoz.