Saturday, October 25, 2014

缘分

缘分这东西 真的很伤很伤人 多少人败给缘分 多少人为了缘分堕落 多少人为了它失去理智失去笑容 唉 眼看眼前一个满要好满brother的朋友就要心碎满地了但是还是说可能还有一点希望 但是事实上 事实就是他就快被拒绝 他已经被拒绝 他已经失败了 不过他努力过 我看得见他的努力 但是 努力有怎样 在多的努力 也不会把那个她给感动 是时候放手了 长痛不如短痛 话说回来 眼看他快要失败了但事实上已经失败了 他还说 他不想放弃 身为他的朋友 我能说什么 我说了长痛不如短痛 我也只能说那么多 接下来就得看他了

Friday, October 24, 2014

Sometimes I really get sick of people. People that I care. 

Oh wells. I cared too much. Again. 

Saturday, October 11, 2014

我发现有些时候 我身边的人 都不说真话 明明事情就是那样 他们都说不是那样的是怎样怎样的 我愣了一下 是这样的吗 难道说真话也错了 但是后来我想了想 他们不说真话的原因很可能是要保护自己掩护自己来保护一段感情 总之 不说真话就是要掩护自己 我不懂 但是我又懂了 这是其中一个条件让自己可以在这社会‘混’久一点也让人缘也好一点 话说回来 我还是我 我无法掩饰我自己 我依然有话直说 我依然有时候把事情用我过于表情丰富的方式来表达所以朋友都叫我‘演戏派’ 可我所说的都是他妈的真相只是用了我自己的一套来表达 懂我的朋友就会明白不懂得我的人就会鄙视我吧 唉 看来若我要在这地头‘混’久一点 我必须掩饰一点虚伪一点还是保持我还我



Thursday, October 9, 2014

of volunteer

This is going to be a quite long post, with all my OWN opinion. So, don't take it personally or offended.

What's volunteer to you?

To me, volunteer is to help someone with heart, to help someone without any return. Basically, it's to help someone with heart.

Okay, on Monday, I volunteered in a charity dinner organized by a Buddhist association as waitress and performer. So, there were leftovers and some extra food in the end of dinner. Then, the kitchen helpers told us that we can actually take some food back, if we don't mind. In fact, there were a lot of leftovers, fried rice, vegan fish and soup. There are leftovers and there were extra. There was one old lady even hand out some food to us, volunteers that she purposely made for us and she told us to eat in the kitchen area to avoid any bad mouth behind I guess. Most of the volunteers were happy about the taking food back home since most of us were students. Taking food back home means we don't have to coooooook! :)

Okay, so this is the story.

The next day, my friends and I were sort of sharing the experience to other classmates. To be honest, the volunteers I met in the charity dinner were all happy people, we had a lot of fun. I am serious. Most of them don't mind taking extra food or even leftovers. They were happy, I can see it.

Alright...so we were sharing then one of the volunteer who was one of the volunteer said that she actually don't like to take leftovers. Okay...that's still ok, not too harsh and I respect her own opinion. Not everyone is the same. Then, she continued...

"I think they (as in the organizers) should not treat us like that by giving us leftovers since we have already volunteer to help them..."

She did continue saying something but I did not pay any attention to what she said coz I can feel my blood is already boiling.

First, I think she don't know the meaning of 'volunteer'. Second, for God's sake, it is a freaking charity dinner, and the organizers need volunteers and she is expecting a good return? Just dumb. If the organizers can afford to get professional waiters, they need not any volunteers lah! Still expecting good return? What kind of good return? ABALONE MEHHHH.

Later, I brought up this to my friends and said that I am not happy about what she said and so on la. Then, one friend asked me..."Did you heard what she said in the end?" Nope, I didn't.

Guess what she said. She said that by giving us leftovers is kind of treating us like dogs.

Good job girl! Dogs.

This even boils my bloood! What the hell is she even talking seriously!! It's a freaking charity dinner and it is a freaking volunteering job!

Oh my god! I am speechless. I was so angry. I was really angry. I would lecture her in front of everyone if I have the courage! How can she said that when people are offering good things to us? It's not like the foods are spoilt or what, the food were all edible!

Holy shit. I can still feel anger when I am typing this. 

After what my friend told me about what she said in the end, I finally know why she was staring at us one kind and smiling one kind at a corner when we were taking some food back home.

Now I know.

Enough said, I am not here to judge her. I am just trying to say that everyone is different.

But I really hope she learn to appreciate. Really.

But, in the end, it's still up to her, it's her opinion, it's not mine.

Monday, October 6, 2014

My first performance on stage

6/10/2014 

Indeed a night to remember! We finally did it - the high school musical performance! From learning step by step to rehearsal to the final performance, we all did a great job! We all had fun! We are like a big family! I hope to see you guys soon - tizzy, tzyy ning, wai mun, silace, dansen, maggie, xinting, crystal and desmond! 

Thursday, October 2, 2014

爱情观

我最近发现我身边有另一半的男性朋友 都很开放 他们好像身在一个开放式的恋爱 我不知道我用的字语对不对 我所说的开放式恋爱就是 即使有了女朋友 他们还是可以 他们还是依然 跟其他女生朋友聊个没完没了 天南地北都聊 不是说我老土但是我真的觉得这个很不对 男女之间可以是朋友 可以很要好 但是有伴侣的应该要和异性朋友保持一段应该要有的距离 我们永远无法知道未来会发生的事 万一有一天对那所谓的“异性好朋友”产生了爱慕 那该怎么办 还有人言可畏啊 有伴侣的如果还是一如往常跟异性朋友走得很近 流言蜚语肯定走不掉 不但伤感情而且人格还会被质疑到底是不是一个好情人 

纯粹个人意见也顺便提醒自己 

am i over it or...not

hi es how have you been  lets be a little cliche how are you my inner child  haha  overall i think i am doing pretty well  though there are ...