Rant: Differences

Hmm. Where do I start?

Today.

I am feeling extra feeeel today, since morning. Ugh. I shouldn't start doing my cover letter and resume when I was having my bread and coffee in the early morning. That totally ruined my mood for the whole morning and afternoon.

Ok la, I was lost. I don't know what to do. My close friends are working and working and working very hard for their part time job while here I am, chillaxing and have the most chillax job compared to them. What I feel smart about myself is that I get the same hourly pay as them. But of course, I earn lesser coz I work only three days weekly and they work almost everyday...

What's next?

I realize that everyone is really different in terms of thinkings and doing things. It's not anything like when we were all in university or college where our aims were about the same - get flying colours results, pass all the tests, pass all the lab tests and have fun. It's not the same anymore. We don't need good results and we are not going to take any test anymore. It's just nothing to do with it anymore. Everyone is one. You get me? We are not really we anymore. Well, that's life. One will not be exactly the same with another. Everyone is different. Different in every way.

I see selfishness, I see loneliness, I see bravery, I see kind soul, I see...I have seen something new recently during my unemployed days. To be honest, I see selfishness the most.

I am not going to be anymore negative. I will keep myself with positive thoughts. It's all about choices.

Life goes on anyway.

UPDATES

APRIL

...I am still not employed yet.
...I am working on a part time job in a frozen yoghurt shop.
...I am able to pay my rental and not other expenses yet coz I really earn not much.
...I am sending out applications to administration positions, just to try my luck.
...I celebrated zhuwei's 22nd birthday! Like finally, after we have been together for four years, this is my first time celebrating his birthday together and I even baked a cheesecake for him!
...I went to Sydney Royal Easter Show with ern, zhuwei and angela. It rains the whole damn day on that day...crazy weather.
...The weather is getting cold.
...Met up with Weihan in Sydney, just a short catch up.

Oh Lord, please keep me strong. At times, I am so lost, I don't know where to go, I don't know what to do and I don't know what should I do. Ughhhh. I shall stay very strong. This is just part of life, yeah I know that.