memories are annoying II

I think I am annoying now. 

bah, don't care. 

today, someone said bff need not to be show, it is deeply in our heart. 

Hmm well said. I guess I have to agree. 

I do have a few friends where we don't talk so often yet we are still feeling close to each other. 

Just a few. 

I agree and disagree, actually. 

The reason I still feel close to them even though we don't talk much or contact each other often is because that we put effort on our friendship. 

Let's not talk about everyday. 

Just talk about initiative. 

Initiative, is important in any relationship, be it boy girl relationship or just plainly friendly. 

We take initiative to talk to each other once in a while. 

We know we will be there whenever we need someone. 

We know. 

It's the chemistry. 

And, before the chemistry happen between us, there is effort. 

But, some people just don't give a shit on initiative and effort. 

They will be like, why should I find you when you don't. 

Ok, so what if I find you all the freaking times and you never take initiative and always saying that 'I don't contact you doesn't mean I don't care' kind of bullshit. You think our friendship will be strong when I am the only one who always take initiative? 

Have you heard of one sided love? 

Yes, that's it. 

Alright alright, I might be a little too sensitive. 

Maybe I am. 

Because I care. 

Because I am not selfish as fuck. 

Because I am not that kind of 'I don't contact you doesn't mean I don't care' (as if I know you care when you don't contact me lol). Human beings are just funny at times. Also, ridiculous. 

People tend to create something so funny to protect them and thinking they very cool like that. 

I very beh tahan. Sorry. 

Anyway, this is something to learn in life. 

After all your studying life in schools or universities. 

You will get to see so much this kind of shit happen around you. 

Well, shit happens lol. 

Then, you will know clearly who is the one you can trust and rely on when you are in deep shit. 

Then, you know how annoying this shit can be. 

Then, you will know you shouldn't put so damn much of effort on someone when they don't give a shit. 

Then, you will know, friends are only friends and you will also know at the very end of the everyday, you have yourself to trust and be strong no matter what. 

Coz this is how the world rolls yo. 

Stay strong peeeeeps. 

Don't give shit on people who don't give a shit on your effort and time. 

Memories can be a pain in the ass. 
aih.

memories are annoying

something hit me again today - 

before I start anything, this is just my bloody opinion. 

Memories is one of the most annoying element in the world. 

Element? Whatever. 

It's just my opinion.

You don't have to agree with me and I'm not expecting that from you. 

Memories is what we carry about with us everyday. 

Memories are meant to be cherish. 

Memories remain forever. In your heart. 

Today, one of my friend say that 

"I don't contact you doesn't mean that I don't care" 

WAAAAAAAA. SO ATAS KIND OF LEVEL OF CARE. 

I'm sorry to say that I take not contacting as not care lor. 

Make life easier a bit can or not.

If not contacting each other is still care...I can't even....understand.

So sorry to let you know that I don't understand loh.

If not contacting is still care...just wow me. 

So many times.

Maybe contacting each other is not your style lah. 

Anyway, I have to say I have a few friends around me used to do this - not contacting doesn't mean don't care. 

This is very bothering me. 

I'm confused. 

So what is contacting each other? Care? 

Then what is not contacting but care? 

I think it's just...annoying. So annoying. 

I always keep in touch with people I care. I don't do it another way round. That doesn't make sense to me, at all. 

I show them I care. 

Sometimes too much, always too much. 

And why should I care so much? 

For whaaaaat? 

Anyway, cheers to the people whom we still keep in touch! 

I am glad I have you lol. 

ciao.

女人啊

总觉得越靠近自己的东西，很快就会失去；

但是，事实上并不是这样；

只是心里一直觉得一切的美好就快失去了，就快没了。。。

唉， 女人

多烦啊。

UPDATES

1. I finally moved out from my small little stuffy room with my one and only roommate lol. We moved to a bigger room, a so much bigger room where we can actually do dancing in the room! So spacious. So much space to move around. Back to our old room, we can barely move around in the room, not even joking. So, we are both very happy to move out and start a new life (sort of) haha.

2. Getting along with the new housemates from Taiwan. Hmmm I can't speak my Malaysian slang and words to them such as, zomok, walao and so many more lol. Also, I am learning some new terms from them such as screw driver. We usually just call screw driver a screw driver back home but I can't say screw driver as screw driver to them lol. Get it?

3. Started as a contract worker for 3 weeks in a flour making company. So yes, I finally get to work in MY FIELD. Yes, 3 weeks, which is sad but I hope they extend my contract maybe? I hope they are lack of people in certain department in the company lol. Anyway, I have a few tasks that need to be done every morning then move on to inspections on flours and wheat and some report. Yeap, that's about it.

That's all I guess?

xo