学习

现在，应该是时候，也是一个很适当承认我是一个非常冲动的人。我一点都不冷静。我的忍耐极限低到可怜。我很快就会被激怒。我很快的就会做出一些很冲动的决定然后后悔的不得了。

一直以来，我真的是个直肠直肚的人，想到什么就说什么，伤害了人有时候还不懂。有些人会觉得我很有个性，有些人应该在偷偷的讨厌我吧。哈哈！有时候我真的很讨厌我这个很有个性的性格，有话直说没什么错啊，这是我曾经很年轻的时候的想法，现在长大了一点，有话直说并不是一件很光荣的事。可能在适当的时候，有话直说真的会让人佩服，但是，如果在错的时候，有话直说只会让人觉得很反感。

最近，我在学习忍耐。可是，我要宣布我失败了。最后，我还是有话直说，祸从口出了。结果，我忍着泪水收拾我的烂摊子。忍，真的真的不是我的强项，但是，我真在学习。或许不是说凡事都要忍，应该说凡事都要看开一点，心胸放大一点，那么事情就会变得小一点自然的问题也会越来越少那么生活就很快乐！哈哈哈！

人嘛，时时刻刻都在学习。

还有，一句对不起，该说的时候就不要吝啬。

想没有通

唉。我真的想不通。

最近，面试了一份兼职。是在一间规模满大的杂货店打工。
那女人问我，我想在那一个部门做。我便告诉她说，我想攻服务客人的部门。因为我比较喜欢和人说话，我想见到人，我不想在仓库里搬东西。
然后，她便简略的告诉我，服务客人应该要懂的事还有我需要去做的工作。
除了洗厕所，其他的任务我都很OK。

洗厕所。
嗯，这份工作我从上个星期五想到今天，还拿不定注意。就因为她说了那三个字。
唉，我还满懊恼的！怎么我那么拿不定注意！怎么我那么弱！怎么我那么没胆！怎么我那么计较！
就因为这个原因，我大概问上了好几个朋友。有的叫我去试一试可能不是想象中的糟糕，有的叫我算了吧再找另一分工作。

或许，我应该去试一试。趁我还年轻。。。还有多余的力量去消耗。哈！
而且这分工的薪水很高！18澳币一小时，代表一小时可以赚马币57令吉！我真的发大财了如果我接这分工！

啊。我想，我就接了它吧！
啊。我想，我还要再想！

犹豫

一个我从不明白的感觉 － 犹豫。

有时，我会犹豫要不要继续写部落格。
有时，我会犹豫我做的那个决定是否真确，会不会对我不利。
有时，我会犹豫我对她或则他是否带着真诚的心。
有时，我会犹豫我应不应该相信某人说的话。

有时，犹豫的事情都很多很多。。。
这些的犹豫，其实都是多余。

犹豫了过后，部落格还是继续写。即使没有读者，有我这个读者。
犹豫了过后，决定已经下了，所以还是得把那件事给完成。
犹豫了过后，明明就很真诚对待他人，但是就是犹豫影响了思想，变成了一个我不认识的我。
犹豫了过后，我应该相信我该相信的人。

犹豫，你真的会影响我的思想。
所以，请你离我远一点。

Never know it was THAT sad!

I've been here for 3 weeks, almost a month and now, I would like to blog about 3 weeks ago when I was in Kuala Lumpur International Airport.

Before I fly here, I told myself not to cry. You know, when people are leaving for studies, then the friends and family with definitely cry. I do not want to cry. I told myself not to cry and I keep it in mind.

On the day I fly, my family, my grandma, my grandpa, my boyfriend, my uncles and aunties and cousins and a few secondary and uni mates came to say a goodbye to me and friends. My second aunt actually hugged me very tight. Hmm, 她看着我长大叻。So yeah, we were quite close. Then, my grandma hugged me too and she cried and I ALMOST CRY but I control myself. My boyfriend hugged me......ahhh.

Apparently, my daddy and my mummy never hug me! Hahahaha! I guess they were TOO SCARED to hug me. My mum is one tough mother, I don't know why she NEVER cry, so very the steady! Kai Yen's mum cried and Siew Ern's mum cried but my mom's eyes are not even red. BUT, when I was about to check in, going down the escalator to the custom check, I saw my mom from upstairs swinging her hand very hard to say goodbye to me. I don't know whether should I laugh or cry. Then, my dad, he is tough as usual. No tears but keep advising me to study hard, study hard and study hard. Yes, I will. Then, my boyf, he was about to cry too when reminding me what to do once I reached Australia and some advises (He is always that fatherly) but I told him not to cry. Because if someone starts to cry, I will start crying and everyone will cry. So yeah, better not cry at the first place.

Yes, I told myself not to cry but when I was about to take the escalator down to the custom check I cried. The tears flow down from my eyes and I don't know how and why and the tears keep falling from my eyes. Lol. That was the moment my friends and I cried like big babies. Then we looked at each other and we started to laugh at each other. Hah! So memorable.

I thought I will not cry but I cried.
I never know leaving will be THAT sad. 

Will definitely meet up with you guys soon! xo.

金玉良言

我妈告诉我说，没有人有义务对你好除了你爸爸和妈妈。 

I feel joy.

I feel joy. I am over joy I guess. I just came back from church. I visited my very first church ever since I came to Adelaide. The church I visited - Holy Trinity. I got to know this church from a guy, Gary from Overseas Christian Fellowship. Holy Trinity is a very old and traditional church. Things are going slowly not like the modern ones with some sort of "rock&roll".

So how I find this church? 
I find it comfortable. Its just that the church is freakingggggg hot. They only provide wall fans and the fans are not near to you or me. It's on top...like near the ceiling. And its summer here. So yes, the whole service I felt like I was in a big oven. Anyhow, the mass wasn't long like what I had back in Malaysia. It took up about 30 minutes which is short. Then, after the service, Aunty Ching cooked dinner for the international students. How lucky! She is the cook there and she is indeed very nice. The foods are good too! I met a few Singaporean during the dinner session and they are nice. :)

Ok, basically it's a good day. Throw away all the rubbish in my mind and I am filled with joy and happiness and love! Hallelujah. 

ONLINE BANKING

Now, I am in Aussie studying abroad. Hence, I have to manage my tuition fees and other fees by myself. Oh god, I have to say OH GOD! I never know how to do online banking...I never know. The reason is because when I was back in Malaysia, there is NO NEED to worry; because my mommy will settle everything for me and my daddy too and my daddy. So, back then, all I needed to do is STUDY and PLAY. There's no reason for me to worry about my fees, how much are my fees, how must the fees be settle whether through cash/credit card/debit card/cheque or online. I never need to worry. Now, everything is different. I need to manage things myself. My phone bill, my tuition fees and my hostel fees. 

Just an hour ago, I was figuring out how the hell can I pay my tuition fees and my phone bills. I almost die........Now, everything is almost settle. I am paying some of my bills online and some through post office.

Ok, long story short. I survived. Thanks to my Zhu Wei. He is more familiar with online banking stuffs.  

One damn good thing, I finally know how online banking works! Anyhow, I still don't trust online banking 100%. I feel that is dangerous. Hmm, I got this from my dad I guess. Heh. 

I did once online shopping and got warning from daddy. Hoho. 

xo. 

眼睛

在澳洲有两个星期了，现在就分享我在这两个星期所看到的人事物吧。

1. 街头表演在这非常普遍而且很有水准。有一位拉小提琴的四十出头的中国先生满吸引大家的目光。还有两个黑人的表演也很特别。伸头去看看他们的钱筒还真的装着满满的钱耶。有时候还看到一张五十令吉！
2. 我差不多每天都会碰到神智不清的人。男女老少都遇上了。还真的满奇怪的。
3. 这里的老师都很开放，上课的时候都可以用上出口。 
4. 这里的残障人士都很受注重。公共车上都有为他们准备了特别位置给他们。 
5. 这里的小女生穿的背心的袖口很大, 大到可以看穿里面的东东。。。

就这么多啦。头脑想不到了。有点累。

开始上课这两天都打瞌睡。糟了糟了。