CIGARETTES

Hmm. Let me start with a secret of mine, I almost started to smoke in secondary school and I did ask my classmate who smokes to let me try smoking one day later. So why did I even wanna try smoking when I know smoking is bad for health and also my image prolly. The reason is simple in fact, I was growing up and facing some friendship problem that time and friendship problem tend to be the most popular problem in teenagers (-.-) also I hate to face shits so I thought smoking can really solve my shits. So yeah, that period of time I really thought of smoking and trying to be a bad girl. Lol. I was that childish. My friend did ask me a few times whether I REALLY wanna try smoking or not but I don't remember what I said but a strong feeling still tell me that smoking is not good for health and also, I am afraid that I will turn into a monster if I really succeed to be a bad girl. Okay, I am not saying smoking is not good and smoking will ruin someone's image. That's a NO. So in the end of story, I did not try sucking a cigarette until now. Lol. And I am really really really really glad that I did not try smoking when I was young! Thank God and my parents! <3

My secret is no longer a secret now. 

Recently I found that one of my friend started to smoke because she is bored. She used to be my really good friend in primary school days. We have tuition together, we eat together, we bath together, we watch horror movies together and etc. I am quite sad that she smokes now. I am really not trying to say smoking will ruin someone's life, I just feel sad. Its like a natural reaction. I haven't talk to her for ages after she leaves KL to Penang with her mom after standard 6. I should have maintain our friendship. I should have be her listener. I know she is going through tough times in secondary school days from all sorts of social media. 

Ahh. What should I do? If I start up a chat with her out of sudden, that would be really really awkward right? Gah. 

And to the teenagers who are reading this long post, growing up is just one of the process in life. Shits happen - from studies to relationships. All sorts of shit will definitely strikes you during your teens. Stay positive all the time, learn to love yourself, talk to your mother (or someone you trust) if you have any problem, learn that you're growing up not that God is torturing you or haunting you down or trying to make your life hard. No, it's just a process in life. Stay positive and remember those who loves you so that you will not take the wrong step. 

bahh.