final year

and i'm back to adelaide, to the white apartment with no tv, to my own little space.

three months passed by just like that. time really flies.

just a few days ago, before i come back to adelaide, i only realize i have got so many things to do, things that i planned to do but i never start doing it, hence, the last few days was a havoc for me, everything was in rush, mummy start to nag. yeh, last minute again.

anyway, its 12am here and i just landed this morning, i am tired, i am going to bed soon. and anyway, it's my final year here. hopefully everything especially in studies will be good and smooth.

goodnight.

Not so secret

Let me tell you a secret. 

I almost get into an accident today because I was...looking where should I place my handphone and I thought I was holding the steering tight enough to not let the steering going left or right but without me noticing the steering going towards left and I almost knock on a divider that will prolly cause the car to thumble. 

Lesson learnt. Never ever play or holding phone or do something else when I'm driving. 

Phew.

I've got a friend who cares about my family almost as much as I care. 

I am blessed and may God bless this friend forever. 

哦？

很多时候 很多人都会说这样好那样不好要这样不要那样等等的话 但是 很多时候 那些人在说出这些话 都是没有亲身经历过 里头的喜怒哀乐都没有经历过 

那么其实他们有资格说道理给人家吗 

我在想 真真的挑战才刚要开始 

祝我们好运 🍀 

little wish

When I get my own house in the future, I wanna have a wall to stick all my favourite photos on the wall. 

Ahh I should first wish I can own a house in the future lol 

Appreciation

This was taken when I travel to India with my family last year December. 

I love photos but it's getting expensive now and the quality is no longer that good compared to the earlier days when we don't have super big memory of memory card and iPads and blablabla. 

This photo tells a story: 

So here it goes...

My brother gave the kite he bought to the kids who surrounded him when he was trying to fly the kite on top of the hill. They were so happy when I brother pass the kite to them. I remember clearly the smile on their face...so happy and big smile. So we asked for a photo with them and of course they were happy enough to take a picture with my bro and sis. 

The kids are poor. Some of them don't wear pants and only wear shirts. When I say they don't wear pants, they don't even wear underwear both girls and boys. Their hands and feet are covered with dust and mud. They ask for money and food. You give one of them, a whole bunch will come to you and they fight for food, literally fight. We witnessed the fight and tried to stop them but they don't understand English much so we yelled at them and only they stop. 

So this is my India trip. I truly hope the kids are doing good...and have enough food to fill their tummy. 

存在

我觉得每个人都应该去听听汪峰的《存在》。 

一开始的歌词就包含了多么多么多的意思，多么多么的伤人心。。。

我的人生还没到那么伤痛的地步啦。只是觉得他的歌词太强了！ 

“多少次幸福却心如刀绞。。。”

Late night post

I've got so many to note down actually but I always miss the I-HAVE-THE-BLOGGING-MOOD. I'm trying to have the mood now. 

Where should I start? 

10 more days till the day I fly back to Adelaide. Mummy keep telling me to start packing but I haven't even open up the luggage. I really don't feel like going back because HOME is too damn good. Everyday I do nothing lol like a 'fei chai'. Those who always complain about their home and parents should go and eat shit lol. Parents are the best thing in the world! Nobody loves me as much as they do. Hmm my boyfriend do lolz but it's another kind of feeling. It's just...different. 

Anyway, I should really start packing because I need to pack in some food and my lovely shoes! Without noticing I bought like five pairs of shoes in these three months...I feel damn rich and happy! :) 

And this year going back to Adelaide, I need to spend less because I spent too much last year ughhhhhh. I've got limited savings to spend and I have to get myself a part time job. Hopefully I can get one haih. Reality...why you so real. 

And Mr Yap is going to Sydney to continue his study too. So, out relationship is going to face another new start, which is a good start because we are finally on the same land with 30mins of time different! Hopefully we will work things well and be happy! :) oh, he told me about this one week before he fly off and I almost give him a slap with a wok. Yeh. 

Friends. 

I've seen and feel and know who are the ones who still care about the friendship we have or we had and who don't even give a damn. This crazy cruel world fill with these people is just heart breaking! 那种心情就好像身体里的每一根血管打了一个大大的结，纠结死了，难过得不得了。ok whatever it is, I know what's letting go. No point asking them out all the time and all I get is...nothing? I guess human beings are like that and this is how the world goes lah. People move around, nothing will remains as they were forever.  

Anyway, I wish that this year will be a good year and I hope I can grow up lol! 

有些人会觉得你把事情办得妥当再告知他是他妈的理所当然 但是我偏偏讨厌这种所谓的理所当然 

难道你就不能够放多一点点的effort吗 即使是做个样子也不行吗

想了想 每个人的性格都不一样嘛 所以怨得了谁啊 

啦啦啦

朋友

废废小组 在一起肯定回做出一些神经质的事情 今天在丹戎士拔拍了一段十五秒的新年短片 乱拿人家摆设的道具当成自己的拍摄道具 我们真的厉害到级点 组里面那唯一的哥哥不小心把人家的酒壶的盖子给摔破了 哼 还对我们说没事没事 现在最好祈祷闭路电视没有拍到他的脸 哈哈哈 我保证他现在很慌了咯 想要回去修补 哈哈哈哈 如果是真的我只想说 不要三八 小事一桩 

今天玩得几开心一下 晚安 

CNY

This year's CNY seems to be extraordinary. I don't know why. Perhaps it's because I've been away for months so I feel a little bit more happier and appreciate more on the things happening around me especially the traditional events such as prayers to do or so. 

The picture above is showing the night my grandma 接财神 meaning "to welcome the god of wealth". So I decided to stay up till 12am to help out and also to have fun lol. I don't think I've got a lot more chance to join all these kind of traditions later. A lot of the used to be traditions are eliminated slowly one by one. So yeah, I decided to stay up late that night. 

Happy Chinese New Year! :)