Start afresh, I said

First, Happy White Valentine's Day! Zhu Wei told me that it's popular in Japan and Aussie don't celebrate it lol. So yeah, we are not celebrating and I just found out not long ago. 

Ok anyway, start afresh. 

I came all the way to Sydney, chosen Sydney and left Adelaide - the only reason is that I want to start afresh. Start everything again, from getting used to the public transport, making new friends (at the moment, I don't have any new friend yet, I am still meeting up with friends I met back in Malaysia and Adelaide), new life, new environment, new dusty air and less peace here. 

Start afresh. One of my friend said to me that she is quite shock that I am brave enough to come to Sydney to start everything again. I can't remember what I told her but I think I told her I wanna start afresh. Basically I told everyone the same thing when they ask me "Why Sydney". Why start afresh? I don't really know why, it just came to me that I wanna start afresh. Reset my life lol. Reset everything and move on. Last year was tough for me, mentally and physically but I have to say I had lots of fun too in between. It was tough mentally because I've got issue on dealing with people and friends and myself. It was tough physically because I was in my final year degree. 

Adelaide has too many memories. Every corner in the city has its memory. Too many. I can't even...you know. I just...uhh...I don't know. I know that I will not go back Adelaide to start my job searching, I just won't do it. I love Adelaide. I love the city. It's so peaceful. It's so happy. It's so relaxing. I am so used to the place. I've got friends there. I feel safe there. But, I won't go back there for the moment. 

Perhaps I've learnt a lot or something last year that I can't really describe to anyone, not even myself. I am still me. I don't think I change a lot. I just learnt something important in life and friends around me taught me about it. Life lessons lol. You know it when you know it and can't even describe it, it's just something in you and you are trying to adapt it and don't even think to change anything about it. It's real and it's a realistic world. 

I came across this quote today and it's so true - "You get use to someone - start to like them, even- and they leave. In the end, everyone leaves."  This is so true. Everyone leaves. 

I start afresh because I want to, because something in me...left. 

EMOTIONAL STRIKES LAH.