of directions

Hello blog

I miss blogging actually 

I miss writing down my thoughts and read them again after a while 

I miss reading myself and see how much I grow throughout the days 

I miss...having time 

Let's do something about direction on this post 

I have spent most of my time in Australia for the past three years...four years maybe

Anyway...

So yes I came to Aussie with three course mates in Adelaide for 2 years 

Then I came to Sydney after I graduated for job opportunities and also for my boyfriend 

I don't know where the courage of moving here came to me 

But glad that I am not alone here all the time 

I have got my boyfriend, Ern, Angela and Kim 

Yeap not many of them but more than enough to have them when I needed someone to talk 

Of coz I have got friends to talk to overseas back in Malaysia 

So glad that we are still in touch even though we are far apart 

Ok...directions...

So many of us - many of us meaning the friends/course mates I have met in Aussie 

Many of us now are deciding to go back to our homeland our tanah air or to stay back here is Aussie 

A few of them have to leave the country after we graduated mainly due to visa restrictions which sucks so much 

Other than that - some of us stayed back for work experience/study and also a mindset like 

"oh can stay back ah then stay back la earn AUD maahhh.."

Here is where we are all in different directions 

Most of us started off having lectures under the same roof in the same roof sharing the same boring classes feeling sleepy together in class having exams together doing assignments together staying up late for assignments and then graduated together 

We were in the same directions 

Now - we are in different directions 

We have our own dream to catch we have our own to-do-list we wanna do different things 

We are in different directions 

This is sad 

But this is life 

We will never be bound together forever and ever 

Physically no but mentally yes I hope 

Some of us did stay in touch and we are still close even when we are in different direction 

But some of us don't which is really sad 

Directions lead to separation 

But what can I do 

I have got my own direction 

I can only show them this is my way 

But I can't tell them to come along with me 

We are all different 

We are 

Now we are again facing the same thing again to decide to stay or leave 

There could be so many reasons to stay back same goes to returning back to homeland 

So many personal reasons

It could be family it could be partner it could be living style it could be...so many more 

We can't control anyone we can't control anyone of us 

We can only hope for the best for each other 

At least that is what I am trying to do now 

Despite how much I want some of them to stay back at least I don't feel 'alone' 

I am not alone in fact but just saying lol 

...

Directions...you are so cruel you are so real 

So real that I learnt so much 

Learnt so much about people about feelings about strength about weakness 

I don't like you, direction

but I thank you.