adulthood

one of the thing we got to learn in adulthood is - to not care, to not care so much

un-be-lieve-able

yes

but that is legit

the more you care the more frustrated you get

but sometimes we (I) can't control my mind

it is different from overthink

it is not like overthinking

it is like you can't get yourself out of that problem

but that problem is not your own problem

get it?

it is complicated

it is complicated when it involves mind and...feelings

always

so what should we care?

ourselves.

yourself.

your closest family.

friends?

well....this is the tough part.

friends, good friends, close friends, buddy, soul mate, best friends

afterall they are friend

care for them too but there is a limit

there is a  limit

you have to set the limit

you have to actually practice to not go over the limit

but where is the limit

the limit is where you have done your part

that is the limit

as long you have done your part as a friend

they are friends afterall

they live their own life

they do not live for you

and neither you do

so do not go over the limit

do not overthink

what happens next, happens

...

I have done my part as a friend

what else can I do

nothing

and I am not going to do anything

because I cherish this friendship

I cherish your presence

I love you as a friend

I care for you as a friend

I do not want to ruin what we have now

...

so yes I am not going to cross the limit

...

welcome to adulthood

do not cross the limit

it is always easy to say than do

but I gotta try this time

xx

慢慢来

好今晚我们慢慢来慢慢聊慢慢想慢慢表达放慢一切

我必须慢下来好好思考

最近觉得我应该慢慢来很多事情慢慢来或许会比较好

对自己好一点点

学习慢慢来一点都不简单

我很矛盾 我想慢慢来慢慢的生活慢慢的享受我身边发生的一切一切，但是同时我不想慢慢来我觉得时间过得太快了我必须抓紧时间把握青春把想完成的事情都做到可是现在我还是觉得我还没完成一件值得令我骄傲的事

我一直觉得自己过了25岁就算老了所以很多很多事情我都想在25岁那年完成，最主要是我很想很想拥有一个卓越的事业一间小房子拥有一笔钱拥有很多包包（哈哈）

可是我现在已经24岁了 现在是七月 再过几个月2017年又快没了 我快要25岁了

我想完成的我想拥有的我都还没完成

那天跟一位朋友聊天我说我觉得我快老了 但是她很positive的告诉我她还不觉得自己老了 我当时还不以为然 依然觉得我快老了

但是有天我觉得我真的没有办法把一切一切完成 真的没有办法

既然暂时没有办法完成，不然我慢慢来

想了一下下 慢慢来 真的可以

我接下来的日子真的很多 我只要好好把每一天过得好好的 有一天我可能可以完成我想完成的 慢慢的一步步的完成

所以我决定慢慢来

生活上慢慢来 事业慢慢来 感情慢慢来


哦 我之前的室友今天在香港订婚了！好快好快。真心祝福她幸福快乐。