October 2018

the last post was posted in march?

so much has happened till now

i lost my job

i got a job

then i change a job

so yeah i was working for priceline pharmacy for a month

then i got into this quality control role with another company

priceline was alright

i have never work in a retail before priceline

so the experience was good good exposure

but i dont think i can do that for my whole life

kudos to those who work in retail for years


ahhhhh


too much to say i dont know where to start where to continue

Milennials vs Gen Y

Hello. 

Let's do some fact today. 

I am 25 this year and I have a brother who is 10 years younger than me, that means he is only 15. 

So yes, there is a gap between obviously. A 10 years gap to be exact. 

I am the so called Generation Y and he is the Milennials (which sounds so much more sophisticated). 

So, what are the gaps or difference we have...while growing up? 

First - I use Facebook and he doesn't. There is no FB app in his phone so I guess he seldom log in to his FB. He uses Snapchat and Instagram and Wechat most of the time, all the time. Believe it or not, I think their teachers in school actually told them to set a group in Wechat for some homework or whatever purpose. 

Second - Apple users seem to be soooooo common among them. Birkenstock seems soooooo common among them. I don't know if my friends are poor or what lah, I do not have a lot of friends wearing Birkenstock during the age of 15, we all wear flipflop...yes. 

Ok the above are just some of the difference I found between my brother and I. 

And also, the way my parents raise him compared to my time is a bit different. There is a difference. 

I don't know if my parents were younger then and older now. 

They don't really scold my brother, they tend to be more lenient; while during my time, they were quite strict to me, in terms of my habit, my everything lah bascially haha. 

I remember very very clearly, if my phone bill exceeded certain amount my dad will confiscated my mobile phone...for a damn week. A week was my record. That was really bad. I got really angry, really really angry at my dad. But dad being dad, nobody says no to him. 

So, I don't know if my parents are getting old or they just accept the way the milennials are. 

And also - you canNOT raise you voice/scold your milennials babies. They tend to be weak in this 'section'. They are not scold-able. You can only talk nicely to them, not sure if they are even listening to you or not, but yes, you can only sweet talk and talk softly to them hoping they listen and learn and listen and be a good baby. During my time, my parents scolded me for some misbehaving, they say it straight into my face la, not like patting me and telling me nicely haha. I am not saying my parents scolded me a lot, in fact no, my parents are quiet parents, they only raise their voice or frowned when necessary.

So there is a difference raising milennials and genY. 

Milennials tend to get better treatment. 

I guess things change along the way. 

The things they are exposed to, the way things are represent to them and etc. 

But the question is, is there a invincible gap between my brother and I? 

Well, I guess there is. 

Imagine, I am 25, I am working, I am in the society and my brother is only in secondary school, and he is in a chinese independent school, I have never been in a chinese independent school, I studied in a government school. And I am in the society, busy working, busy looking for my interest, busy looking for a desire job and in the same time trying to like my current shitty job. I do not have much time to go and understand what is he doing and etc. Plus, I am in Australia and he is back in Malaysia. So, tbh, I do not know his daily routine and I don't speak his language, unfortunately. 

And, being an Asian, we never say I love you this kind of thing in our daily life. We usually love them quietly and observe them quietly, as if I am spying or stalking him, so that leads to a misunderstanding...if you say I stalk him, I am just worry about him but I can't ask him directly because I just can't, asking directly is not the asian style lol. 

So, I think we can only guess he cares for me and I care for him. 

I know that my brother cares for me quite a bit, from my mother. 

I don't know how my mother knows, but mom being mom, I think she just know and assume. Whether the assumption is true or not, I will let it be, I want to believe that my brother actually care for me haah. ohmmm.

So, there is a gap but I think we are still alright. 

We are still fine. 

I hope and I wish we can stay in this way until we are old. I wish we can get better in fact. 

I am trying to understand him more recently, well, I always try but I am not the most patient person in the family. I am kinda like my dad, I get nervous very easily, I get frustrated quite very easily too. So, yeah, I am not very calm. 

If my brother is not doing what I advised or said, I tend to get grumpy...but that is not the way. That is not the way...I tell myself. But god knows how hard is it to actually do it than saying. 

So every time before i talk to my brother, I tell myself - stay calm stay calm, just talk nicely. 

I think I am improving, I think I am. 

I am trying to help him in studies in any way I can. I am trying to help my parents to shape him into a gentleman in any way I can. I am sharing my experiences with him to assist him in this very-lost-and-annoyed teenage stage. 

Being a teenager suck really. Being a teenager's parents suck too! Just because they are so fragile. You wanna shape them but you can't shape them too hard, you gotta be gentle and soft but in the same time you have to make sure they end up in a good shape. 


Anyway the conclusion for this post is that I hope the gap between my brother and I will never grow any bigger. 

I just want to let him know I love him, no matter what. 

I just want him to be good, to be a lovable man in future and to be a smart boy in future.

xx

*okayy I realised I used a lot they and them but no, I mean my brother only, this post does not apply on all the milennials. thx.

26012018

＊叹了一个很长很长的气＊

release all the negativities

最近有在做瑜伽 看着YouTube自己做 其实我一直都觉得瑜伽很好 好几年前跟妈妈一起去上课过后来了澳洲一直说要去class 但是另一方面又不想花钱 所以一直一直没有去class也没有去做 所以今年我告诉我自己今年我至少要坚持做一件事儿 瑜伽就是了 我想我要坚持下去 我要身体健康 因为我觉得25岁了感觉身体真的没有以前那么好了 以前都很少发烧感冒什么的 也没有经痛 没有肚子痛什么的 但是最近当‘姨妈’要来了肚子开始隐隐作痛 还有腰酸酸的 所以我觉得是时候对自己的身体好一点了 吃的方面weekday也节制一点 吃多一点蔬菜水果少少的肉 weekend就放纵 这样我觉得可以吧 哈哈 人生嘛 you only live once

然后我觉得我要保持一个很positive的心态 我很容易被一些芝麻小事干扰 而我一旦被干扰脸就会很黑很黑 然后整个人就会想不通想很多很多 一直想一直想 只会越想越复杂 本来简单的事都变得特别复杂 而且有些事情一直想一直想都不会有任何改变或者说有些事只能看一步走一步慢慢来 总有一天我会得到答案 但是我就是容易怕事 这个怕那个也怕 真的很烦 对 有时候我就是一个麻烦人 可怜我的祖伟 因为他是我的出气筒 他其实真的满有耐心的 有时候我会觉得我不能这样但是真的没办法控制就很香拿他来出出气 哈哈 女人 他懂得 但是我也希望今年我会对他好一点温柔一点哈哈 我真的很不温柔 有时候也很不体贴 所以。。这也是我也想做到的

今年我也想得到澳洲永久居民签证 这回事真的真的干扰了我的思绪情绪太久了 真的太久了 很多事情都得等拿到了签证才能放手大胆去做 现在很多约束 话说回来 如果我是一个天不怕地不怕的人 签证拿到没有都不会被影响的 但是我思想比较保守 比较没有冒险精神 所以我一直都是按部就班 play the safe side

今年我也想认识多一点朋友

加油吧

16012018

guys can you believe that it is already year two thousand eighteen

time flies too fast

way too fast

another year

another year of hustle

lets do it