You won't believe what happened;but you have to

You won't believe what just happened on me 

I can't believe what just happened on me 

I am harmless 

But I was meant to be sacrifice this time 

It hurts 

It is not sad that I felt 

I felt more towards disappointed 

Disappointed on the management 

Disappointed on the people I trusted

Disappointed on the people that I thought they have got my back

Disappointed that actually nobody can help me 

Disappointed that nobody can answer my questions 

So - what I am trying is 

*deeeeeep breathe* 

I got replaced at work 

Not replaced officially yet 

But somehow it is quite obvious that I have got replaced 

Yes 

I worked so hard 

So what 

I worked so many overtime 

I worked with my whole heart 

I gave them whatever I have with me 

I worked with kindness 

and unfortunately this is what I got 

I got replaced in a day 

Out of the blue 

People asked me what happened 

I found out the same time they found out 

What do you expect me to know 

I am trying to take it easy 

The fact that the management is actually getting someone new to replace me 

Without letting me know before head 

And have not have the intention to officially kick me out from the position 

And the new me just sat on chair using my desk using my desktop using my notebook 

And looking all innocent

Which is unfair 

You might ask me how is it unfair 

With my visa ending so very soon it is not easy to get a new job 

I do not want to just quit this job now just because I hate the management I hate the boss 

I do not think this is rational 

I need to sustain a life 

I need to pay rents 

I need to pay insurance 

Anyway I still cannot believe this is happening on me 

I could say I am so harmless to the big people above me 

Anyway what has happened has happened 

Nothing is going to change anything 

Nobody is going to able to help me 

I have myself 

I have myself 

I need to put myself back together 

And move on 

Life goes on 

Anyway anyway

I have gained something 

I have gained experience 

And experience is going to be with me wherever I am 

Experience will be the most precious something for me to take away 

I have gained a lesson 

I have learnt to not trust everyone fully 

I have learnt to keep things by myself still learning actually

I have learnt to not show that I am annoyed on my face still learning actually 

I have learnt that human beings are ugly af 

I have learnt that hard work may not pay off 

... 

Yes 

Nobody is irreplaceable at work 

Not only at work 

... 

I still can't believe what just happened on me 

I do not have so much time to not believe it 

I have only so little time to accept the fact 

and move on 

...

my fellow friends, I am fine 

I shall be fine 

I am not weak 

I believe I can do it 

I have to do it 

...

I can't believe this just happened on me

But I am gonna be fine