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 today i am feeling slightly better 

at least i did not thought of dying 

to escape this unpleasant and uncomfortable situation 

today i am feeling okay 

which is good 

i mean

having the thought of dying 

is bad 

nobody will understand

she will never understand 

but 

anything that is force is no good 

and 

i am not ready to see her or talk to her 

i am running away from her 

and i get shock whenever i see her 

i feel very uncomfortable when i see her 

so i think it is ok for me to not see her or talk to her

its ok to be not okay at times

i am not forcing myself to be ok too 

ok bye