幸好有你

真的幸好有你啊 部落格 

人越是长大 越是难约 越是难相聚 我能够明白大家都各自有自己的生活圈子了 但是还是忍不住要嚷嚷一下 

明天便是2013的最后一天 本想来个“打边炉” 和那些时常说好久不见和他们有多想见我或团聚在一起的朋友 但是反应不怎么好 搞得我本来拥有的热情也淡了 唉 再看看吧 或许三几个好朋友打边炉吹水一个晚上就够了 反正只想高高兴兴过个new year eve :) 

好多好多想写但是一下子就忘了 真的很懊恼

throwback 28/11

I still remember the excitement I had when I was about to reach KLIA on 28/11. The joy in me, the excitement in me, the strong feeling to want to meet my family and zhuwei...just indescribable. I cried the moment when I saw my mum outside KLIA waiting for me together with my sister and brother. I literally cried...fell into my mom's chest hahah. Then, someone at the back said "excuse me". WHAT??!! - Then I saw my dad at the car, tried to hold my tears but I cried and fell into dad's chest as well. Gave them all a hug and off we go back to grandma's house! Double joy lahh.

Now, after a month back home - I do not feel like going back to Adelaide. Home is too damn good.

Ahh, life.

P/S: I came back with Ern and SHE DIDN'T CRY OF COZ. SHE STEADY ONE. Coincidently, her mum's car was just right behind my dad's car. So, when she saw me crying she gave me a hug instead of giving to Ern! I think I win. LOL.

Short update

1. I'm back to Malaysia for 2 weeks and I'm loving it. Spending most of my time with family, boyfriend and friends. 

2. Helped out in a camp held by Hainanese Association on 6-8th December. Met a bunch of fun people. FYI: the people I met are mostly professionals and they are professionaly crazy and fun too! 

3. I eat a lot. 

4. The weather here is really crazy. 

5. I am off to India for 11 days! Spending my Christmas morning on the plane. Lol. 

6. Year 2013 is coming to an end...a gathering/party perhaps? :) 

Ciaoz!

控制一点，行吗？

在你说我之前，想多一点，行吗？

我开始累了。我开始不想再做多余的解释。

Rant

So, I was on the way back home to city from Hahndorf with the girls this afternoon. As usual, we took the public bus...

I was quite pissed off once I got the bus. Not pissed off, I just had the feeling to give a lady two tight slap left and right. 

I just want to say: 
You are fat doesn't mean you can take two seats on the bus. Your leg doesn't need a seat. You only need one freaking seat for your ONE body. 

By the way, there's only one bus every hour so basically the bus will be full but the lady decided to rest her freaking leg on the seat. 

Then, an old lady came up, she did not give the seat to the old lady. Okay...she was moving her leg away slowly and in the same time, she was looking at the old lady while the old lady was looking for a seat behind and luckily the old lady found a seat just behind her. 

HOW SELFISH CAN PEOPLE BE THESE DAYS?

#2

To someone dearly:

Along the way in Adelaide he has always be with me as well. He too gave me a lot of advices and most importantly he always help me in referencing. Lol. He has always be there when I'm not in a mood and tell me to be confident in exams. Just like another father to me. Despite all the quarrels we had through Skype, we are still together and hopefully still going strong. Now I'm going back to give him a bear hug! 

 

15112013

I am taking a short break between the finals. 5 more days to my third paper. So, I was listening the lecture record just now, I almost cry. The reason I feel like crying is that the lecturer cannot freaking pronounce 'R' and I can't listen properly what is she freaking trying to say, everything seems to be so mess up and no unclear! Dooomed lah this time. Ughhh I've got 5 more lectures recording to go...

Anyway, I am finally going back HOME soon and I finally can say this and finally the soon is coming very soon indeed. I can't wait to see everyone back home especially my family! I can't imagine what expression and reaction they will have when they see me and when I see them but I believe it will be the most joyful moment of the year. I truly believe it. 

I've been here in Adelaide for...9 months. I have to say this is a really really good experience to me so far. Allow me to say that I grown up...a little. I learnt to love. I learnt to be patient. I learnt to talk. I learnt to think better. I learnt to see things, many many things. I learnt to bake and cook too!

I learnt to love my family more. I learnt to appreciate everything my parents did for me back then. I appreciate every phone calls/skype I had with them as they are soooo busy at times that I have to wait for the right timing to see them through skype and have a talk to them and making sure they are still good in shape. Today, I truly understand and realize family comes first. They will always be there for you, no matter what shit happened on you. They will always be there. One more thing, ever since I came here, I talked more with my dad and my dad gave me tons of advices and telling me that he loves me thru whatsapp using all kinds of emoticons. When I failed my Biochemistry few months back, he was there for me, calling me and telling me not to give up and do not cry and just do it all over again and he believe that I can do it when I don't think I can. God has been great to me. 

That's all for now. 

Goodnight, 1233am. 

language is fun

很多事情都在于‘不说憋屈’和‘说了矫情’之间。

满有意思的一句话。

正能量正能量正能量正能量正能量正能量正能量正能量正能量正能量正能量正能量

死了

顶！双重打击。

坚强坚强 撑过去吧 无论如何也得撑过去
哇噻 我真的无言

难过死了 心都死去

有始有终？

我在想，为什么上天回我们那么不公平。我所说的不公平是，为什么上天安排我们遇见某个人然后变成朋友在然后变成很好的朋友，但是很多时候不知道从什么时候开始我们的关系变的尴尬，不再有欢笑声不再有当初的关系，然后渐渐的变得疏离，再然后不说话，再然后变成了最熟悉的陌生人。友情是这样，爱情是这样，亲情也不例外。这个是不是所谓的 ’有始有终‘ 呢？如果是的话，我真的觉得有点讽刺。我不想要这种有始有终的关系。到最后只剩下回忆和我自己。

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9BVsfczdmiQ

啊，我也不想自己在这里低回什么。读书去！加油！

Everything has to come to an end

Today marks the last day of physiology practical class. The session ended up wih a 10 minutes group presentation.

So what's so cool about this practical that I would like to jot down? Nothing much actually. It's just that I feel a bit sad that this session is over and we are done with our short research successfully. 

In fact, when this physiology practical started I wasn't quite happy about it because the long duration which is 2-6pm and one more thing is that we are doing a research by ourself but what I don't like about it is the looooong duration. So we are allocated in different groups that assigned by lecturer, kaiyen and I got into the same group and with another four angmoh boys and one of them is 51 years old, Luke, Josh, Criag and Peter. So at first, I was really worry that we can't get along well and we are going to work together on something and it's four hours. So many what ifs came across my mind.Bah...

But in the end we get along well, we always have a good laugh together, Luke is good in talking, Peter is just funny, Craig and Josh as well. Craig is good looking. Some of them are pretty playful but we get along well and we are working things well. Which is really good. 

I guess I'm going to miss them and working as group mates. Peter and Luke are in the health sciences course and the others are in the food science course. So, I guess I will miss peter and luke and that's why I'm feeling a bit sad. Same goes to kaiyen. Lol. 

The man right in front is Peter; the fella sticking his leg out is Luke; the guys behind trying to kiss each other is Josh and Craig. 

小事没事

我在乎，我介意，有怎样？还是得看大局来判断每一件事情。

其实，想了想没什么好在不在意，介不介意，只是芝麻绿豆小事一桩。呵呵。

最近

最近熬夜熬得很厉害，几乎每一天都熬夜。原因就是要把功课给赶完。只能说到现在还是没有把这个坏习惯改掉或是没有积极的再改。因为我的确有早一点开工，但是不积极。一定要等到最后一分钟才有那股‘劲儿’来完成功课。唉。

虽然经常熬夜，皮肤变得很差，生活有点紧绷，但是还是有些乐趣的事情发生。有时候，真的觉得自己很幸运我不是一个人来到这里而是跟三个朋友一起来。起初，争执是免不了的，但是过后，感情就会变得好，说话也可以比较豪放，话题也变的很豪放，无所不谈，笑话连篇，废话连篇，有时候功课不会做也可以问一问，一起发掘美食，一起在厨房噼里啪啦一番弄出一道新菜肴，一起去菜市场等等。这一切一切我想我一辈子都不会忘记。

感激我有的一切；也希望我能一直一直保存这一份感激。

低迴

低迴 － 留恋，徘徊的意思

再坚强的人，再潇洒的人，也会不经意的在留恋一些过去的事，徘徊在浮现在脑海里一幕又一幕的回忆里。没有人能够真真体会他们，但是还是得说，再坚强一点，再潇洒一点，向前看吧。

楊宗緯 - 低迴

只 有沉默 才能聽懂沉默
只有想念 才用想念包裹
只有胸懷裡的痛 才會在胸 懷裡淹沒
只有安靜 特別赤裸

獨 自繞過 回憶埋伏的 巷弄
什麼時候換你埋伏在 街口
你總愛 裝懂地說 生命有時天晴有時膠著
說完後不久 你撒手就走 如此灑脫

我們還沒走過那撒哈拉沙漠
也沒有 在亞馬遜雨林探險過
冰島搭帳蓬 黃河裡游泳 都沒有過
只有彼此允諾

你說過 要去那肯亞坐熱氣球
牽著手 漫步在愛琴海的日落
到底有沒有 為什麼不開口
還是要我 相信你已 揮手 告別了

獨 自繞過 回憶埋伏的 巷弄
什麼時候換你埋伏在 街口
你總愛 裝懂地說 生命有時天晴有時膠著
說完後不久 你撒手就走 如此灑脫

我們還沒走過那撒哈拉沙漠
也沒有 在亞馬遜雨林探險過
冰島搭帳蓬 黃河裡游泳 都沒有過
只有彼此允諾

你說過 要去那肯亞坐熱氣球
牽著手 漫步在愛琴海的日落
到底有沒有 為什麼不開口
還是要我 相信你已 揮手 告別了

那一天 掛著笑來到我的面前
這一刻 掛著笑卻從此閉上眼
什麼叫永遠 你慚不慚愧
現在我 只有思念作陪

整個夜 剩下一片寂寞在旋飛
我的淚 一顆顆堆在你的信箋
有你的世 界 慢慢在支解
剩你的話 彷彿絮語 喃喃地 低迴

人

有时侯 ，“靠人不如靠己” 这句话真的是他妈的准！
有时候，真的是他妈的不想承认但是不得不承认这句话说得太好了！

真 的 是 他 妈 的 准 确， 无 可 否 认。

人类，有时候就是那么自私，那么不顾别人，那么顾自己，那么不想帮忙其他人，那么不愿意伸出援手，那么随随便便敷衍你，那么多的那么。。。让我那么的郁闷，让我对人类越来越绝望，让我怀疑我身边的人到底有几个是真真的朋友！身边到底有多少个朋友是肯帮助你，在任何时候帮助你呢？问问你自己。问问我自己。

Tiny Times 1.0 & 2.0

你看《小时代》了吗？

我把第一和第二部分都给看玩了。小时代这电影是关于四个女生，四个性格不同好姐妹的生活，感情，家庭，友情和工作都包括在内。想说，我很喜欢这两部电影。电影里的主角都很像我和我的朋友们。电影里主角的吵架，玩闹或是一起完成某件事情的teamwork都好像在叙述我和朋友的生活。就是个很活生生的电影。

最喜欢戏里面的顾里。她的性格，她的严肃，她的冷静，她的时尚感，我真的满迷恋她。哈哈。还有，柯震东在这两部电影里都很帅！但是我比较迷恋凤小岳。

好好的享受青春吧！掰！

Rant?

Semester break is coming to an end. If you ask whether I did anything productive, I would say...basically no even though I did listen to recorded lectures and even make my own notes and also started to do research for my Microbes assignment that carry 25%. I make notes because the lecturer didn't update her updated notes and upload to online, hence, I have to copy the notes from her recorded lecture which is such a waste of time. But not really. 

Please don't remind me I am one who lives in 21st century where almost everything rely on technology. One of the thing I hate is - using new software to do my homework! I suck in exploring software. Now, I am using a software called GraphPad where you can draw graphs obviously but I don't know how to use it. I never like using softwares. I never like to explore new softwares. Now, I am staring at the GraphPad for a night and I haven't done any graph. I just hate using software, so damn complicated even though it seems like it's going to ease my work. Oh god...so, please don't remind me that I am living in 21st century. 

At times, I feel lost. I lost my direction. I am so afraid of growing up, like seriously. I wish the time stop now and I never grow up but this is never never going to happen. Everyone knows that. I am not sure whether whatever I am doing now is what I want later. I am not sure what I want in the future. I am not sure what can I do to achieve what I wish to have in the future. I am on my second year on studies and left one more year to go and I have to decide whether to do another year of Honors or I should just get a job or...maybe study something else? I have to start thinking and get my direction right. Growing up is not a joke. Meh...

Bahhhhh.

of choices

dear all,

i believe every one of you are facing decision making among a few choices everyday/once in a while. i just want to say, make the right choice even you don't know what is going to happen in the future; use your eyes and ears, look at the choices and listen to others what they say about it. my dad was right, he always tell me to open my eyes and ears and shut my mouth. my dad was right and i think i just realized...

but i am still trying to make my choice right.

good luck people.

things 2940

So, I am having my mid-semester break for 2 weeks. 

1. Started off the break by going to an international students party in a...club with my course mates. It was my first time going to a club and the experience wasn't good - in the club or after the club. Nothing good. Anyway, before we headed to the party place, we went to Zona'a place for pre-drink because according to the girls the drinks in the club are really expensive so drink all you want before the club. Ahh, I think that's all. Not a good experience, the club is so damn crowded...yeah. 

2. I always wanted to meet up a girl I met in Science Alive exhibition but I still haven't make up my mind when I should meet her. Sometimes, shits just happen lah. Whatever is it, I would really like to meet her up one day in this semester break. 

3. Semester 2 is coming to an end. Semester 2 always seems to be pass faster compare to semester 1! That means finals is coming up, assignments due date are coming and a lot a lot more are yet to be done! Aza Aza! I just wanna pass and not coming back here for supp paper! May God bless me. 

I think that's all. 

Wishes

Yr 2012/ Yun's 19th birthday surprise

sitting on floor (left to right): Mabel, Siau Chian, Kai Yen, Gina & Zhu Wei. 

sitting on couch (left to right): Tzer Wern, Xin Chiann, Mei Jie, Hwee Jin, Yun Yin, myself, Kim, Lien and Chooi Mei. 

we are all from the same secondary school and we all know each other and we fool around in school.

Today, I haven't seen quite a number of them for quite some time. 

there are people pursuing medicine, engineering, nutrition & dietetics, aviation, physiology, hotel management, accounting, mass communication and food science & nutrition. 

I hope everyone is doing well now. :)

1249am

有时候，在生活上难免要牺牲一些东西来得到令一样东西。而这一次，我贪心一点我不想要牺牲任何一样东西。我想拥有很多很多。我想坚持也希望我的坚持会把我带到一个好的地方一个好的position。

加油！

GIVE ME LOVE

So, Ed Sheeran has been famous recently. 

A lot people have been talking about his songs.

About his emotional songs and heart touching songs...

I've been away from english songs for a long long time. 

Nothing really caught my ears. 

And since Ed got so much of good comments, I decided to give it a try! 

And this is Give Me Love. 

Just wanna show off my coming weekend! 

Friday - Mid-Autumn Festival event 

Saturday - ADELAIDE ROYAL SHOW 

Sunday - Jiaxin's 20th birthday dinner.

Can't waitttttttt!

回忆

第一届 超级星光大道 

第一届 星光帮

虽然解散了 但是我拥有的是很多很多回忆 

是一段和朋友们的回忆

我们曾经为他们疯狂 爱慕 

还有不断模仿他们

那些都已经是 六年前的事了

光阴似箭 那些年一起疯狂的我们 慢慢的越来越少见面

大家都各奔东西 追寻自己的理想 

多希望能够再次回到六年前的时光

BLAH.

Can't wait for semester break!

I am starting to have the I-DON'T-LIKE-YOU feeling. The way you talk, the way you think, and especially the way you think you are the best! Oh please, grow up boy! Bahhh.

Good night.

Leslie

STRESS

Feeling stress, again. After the failed paper 2 months ago, I am so afraid to face examinations. I am so afraid till I feel like 'just let it be'. This is not good.

Reminder:

1. Physiology Research Project discussion and carry out experiments. - 4 hours.
2. Presentation on my journal. (I am really worry about this.)
3. Listen to lectures and study for an upcoming exam in Physiology.
4. Assignment II to be done for Food Chemistry.
5. Do past year paper (physiology).
6. Go jogging after tuesday.

Ahh.

Share only lah!

1  今天在巴士上看见了一位许久没碰见的老伯。看上去今天的他显得特别疲惫及憔悴但是身上依然打扮的得体。这一位老伯每一次我看见他都是一个人，我不曾看见他身边有人陪伴。有一次在巴士上不小心把饭盒给弄跌了，刚好掉在老伯的座位下，他慢慢的弯下腰把饭盒给拾起来，我也客气的说了一声thank you。还有一次我和朋友经过一条比较安静的街道看见老伯一个人坐在树下的一个板凳上。有时候我会很好奇，怎么老伯总是一个人独来独往，怎么他的家人可以让一位年迈的老人自己上街去呢，他们不会担心吗？年级那么大，弯弯的身躯，疲惫的脸，缓慢的动作。。。在读着这一段的你可以想象到我形容的这为老人吗？是否和我有同样的想法？

2  除了老伯，今天在巴士上也让我看见了一个很吵很吵的小朋友。虽然长得很可爱，但是如果我是他的监护人，他就惨了。哈哈。这个小孩子就一直闹不时就喊叫。小孩坐在爸爸的大腿上，很粗鲁的在翻着一本大人杂志，边翻边吵闹，爸爸忙着叫他安静一些些但是小孩时而听时而不听继续作乱；妈妈只顾着在一旁专心的看杂志。过后，小孩爬到妈妈的身后，在妈妈的背后扭曲不定，结果妈妈抛出了一句 “what the hell”。。。然后小孩被爸爸抱回去了。我妈妈不曾对我和弟妹动用过粗口。嗯，可能真的是外国的风俗和我们比较保守的亚洲人有些不同。

回家路上 － 30/8/2013

懒

最近，一点点儿的推动力都没有。我是多么的懒惰，多么地懒散，多么的散漫，多么地无聊，多么地怠慢！我不喜欢这样的日子也不喜欢这样的自己但是我真的没有感受到任何一丁点的推动力！啊啊啊啊啊。救命啊！

Recently.

1. Winter is coming to an end.

2. Had Kai Yen's 20th birthday party at home. GLad that she enjoyed it and so do our friends! 

3. Assignments...

4. Baked cake batik. Not exactly bake, I made cuz I don't bake the cake.

5. Joined a lantern-making activity where we volunteer to help making latern for the OzAsia Festival in September. 

6. Miss home. 

7. Wish that someday a DSLR will fall into my hand from sky. Lol.

"You are fatter than fatty acid"

I am getting round FOR REAL. Looking back the pictures I took on February when I just reached Adelaide and compared with the current one. I was like....HOLY SHIT I AM ROUNDER THAN I THOUGHT.

Okay, let's just admit - I am getting fat. I gained weight.

Oh geez. I don't wanna accept this fact so I am on on diet mode. Peace out, wish me luck!

PS: the title of this post came from my Hong Kong friend who teased her girlfriend by that line.

人

有的人假的令我害怕

有的人真的令我更害怕

或许这社会就是如此的可怕；这社会努力地在培养一群又一群的自私社会人士。

第一次和‘红毛人’合作

嗯。真不懂应该开心还是难过还是什么好。我有一个research project必须和四位‘angmoh'男生完成加一个雁。幸好有阿雁不然我可一定会慌张。呵呵。我不懂我在怕什么可能是担心沟通上会有问题吧。不是说我的英语说的不好，我的英语算过得去，但是有时候他们的口音是重到很厉害。即使把耳朵竖起聆听还是会有听不懂他们在说什么的机率。而且这一个project里的communication会被评分。让我更是紧张。今天是我们的第一次见面，第一次一起上practical，第一次的practical便是验尿。我的妈呀！第一堂课就那么尴尬了。但是我真的不能太逊只好以笑容来掩饰我的紧张。然后我们必须讨论research project的题目。四位男生以一口流利的不得了的英文讨论，七嘴八舌，你说他接的讨论，我根本接不上话，只好静静的听只是偶尔给出一点点的意见或是笑著点头表示我同意。唉，想到还真的有点沮丧。

再接再厉吧。我希望下个星期的聚会讨论我可以说更多话给更多意见。

Are you ready for changes?

I think I am so used to this current state and I am afraid of changes.


Comforting people is always so easy but when the real thing happen on ourselves...things are different.

偶像

今晚，我有点伤心。


也因为我没得去周杰伦得演唱会。

CIGARETTES

Hmm. Let me start with a secret of mine, I almost started to smoke in secondary school and I did ask my classmate who smokes to let me try smoking one day later. So why did I even wanna try smoking when I know smoking is bad for health and also my image prolly. The reason is simple in fact, I was growing up and facing some friendship problem that time and friendship problem tend to be the most popular problem in teenagers (-.-) also I hate to face shits so I thought smoking can really solve my shits. So yeah, that period of time I really thought of smoking and trying to be a bad girl. Lol. I was that childish. My friend did ask me a few times whether I REALLY wanna try smoking or not but I don't remember what I said but a strong feeling still tell me that smoking is not good for health and also, I am afraid that I will turn into a monster if I really succeed to be a bad girl. Okay, I am not saying smoking is not good and smoking will ruin someone's image. That's a NO. So in the end of story, I did not try sucking a cigarette until now. Lol. And I am really really really really glad that I did not try smoking when I was young! Thank God and my parents! <3

My secret is no longer a secret now. 

Recently I found that one of my friend started to smoke because she is bored. She used to be my really good friend in primary school days. We have tuition together, we eat together, we bath together, we watch horror movies together and etc. I am quite sad that she smokes now. I am really not trying to say smoking will ruin someone's life, I just feel sad. Its like a natural reaction. I haven't talk to her for ages after she leaves KL to Penang with her mom after standard 6. I should have maintain our friendship. I should have be her listener. I know she is going through tough times in secondary school days from all sorts of social media. 

Ahh. What should I do? If I start up a chat with her out of sudden, that would be really really awkward right? Gah. 

And to the teenagers who are reading this long post, growing up is just one of the process in life. Shits happen - from studies to relationships. All sorts of shit will definitely strikes you during your teens. Stay positive all the time, learn to love yourself, talk to your mother (or someone you trust) if you have any problem, learn that you're growing up not that God is torturing you or haunting you down or trying to make your life hard. No, it's just a process in life. Stay positive and remember those who loves you so that you will not take the wrong step. 

bahh. 

Of waiting.

I wanted to blog about this for quite sometime ago but I always forget. So yes - WAIT.

Have you been waiting for someone? Not in the sense of waiting someone you love, not gonna talk about something so drama. What I mean is, have you been waiting someone to get ready for a meet up/gathering? and how long have you wait for him/her? and do you like it? 

I hate waiting for people.

I can wait but not more than 30 minutes and I think 30 minutes is my very very maximum limit. I sometimes waited for someone for more than 15 minutes and I start to be moody and frustrated. Its like, come on man, be punctual. Being punctual is one of the most basic thing to do in life. What can you do when you can't even be punctual? Okay, if your late for a reasonable reason that is acceptable but there are people have the mindset like "it's not like I will be the only one who will be late" and some are like "aiyah, it's okay la, wait for a while only". Wah, it's not so okay please. Maybe your boyfriend/parents can wait for you but not everyone. Nobody should wait for anyone for something like a meet up/gathering. And worse case scenario is - when he/she is already late for the gathering, he/she started to make up stupid reasons and start to reason their very reasonable reason and making you feel guilty. Oh geeez please. That is so annoying. Just admit your late when your late and if you don't wanna admit your late, don't be late. It's just that simple. What's wrong to start preparing earlier? 

I do get late once in a while though but I really try to be punctual all the time. I did rather to reach at the spot 10 15 minutes earlier. It's okay to wait than letting people to wait for you. Well, to me at least. Maybe I am paranoid but I don't think so. :) 

老了

有一天我忽然在想，有一天我一定会老，脸上一定会铺满皱纹，双手会颤抖，双脚会不能自由走动等等。那一天的我，会怎样呢？

你有想过那样的你吗？

Am enjoying the last weekend of winter break. 

Time flies. 

Sydney/Melbourne trip is like yesterday. 
Sydney: The combination of Hong Kong, Singapore, Korea, Japan and Kuala Lumpur. Crowded. Crowded. Expensive. 
Melbourne: I prefer Melb. Slightly cheaper than Sydney. Not so crowded. Apparently, Queens Victoria Market is my favourite place in Melb. I can wander around the market for a day I think. :) 

Am not ready for Yr 2 Semester 2. Brr.

Sydney/Melbourne

So yes, I am sort of enjoying the last weekend for my first winter break. LAST WEEKEND. Time flies. My trip to Melbourne and Sydney was like...yesterday? Bah. Time flies. 

So, how's my trip to Sydney & Melbourne with friends? 
I would say, it is a good one! A good experience with people I like. This time we don't have any good map-reader or anyone who has great sense of directions. So yes, we do get lost and we do go for the longer or maybe the longest route ever to reach somewhere which we can just reach within a few minutes. For an example, in Sydney, the train central station is just behind our hotel, we went all the way to musuem station (another train station, which is quite near to our hotel too) to get on a train and stop by at central station and move on to another point. We only found out that the central station is just behind our hotel on the second last day in Sydney. We are just too funny. Anyway, it's good for laughing in the future. :) Other than taking the longest route to reach a point, we lost our way too especially in Sydney! Omg, Sydney is so damnfreakingsuperduper crowded and the roads are soooooo narrow. The narrow roads causes the amount of car to look like 324729584 of cars. Sooooo crowded and one thing I must mention, the amoutn of people smoking in Sydney...too damn a lot. Just take a walk on any busy street you will know what I meant. Good luck. Okay, the people are friendly, just ask anyone that looks like local when you lost your way they are really helpful and they are also helpful in taking pictures! 

Sydney/Melbourne?
I prefer Melbourne! Sydney is too crowded for me but Sydney definitely has the better scenery than Melbourne. Melbourne is just like another city. Sydney is the combination of Korea, Japan, Singapore, Hong Kong and Kuala Lumpur. Melbourne has better food and  slightly cheaper than Sydney. Sydney is really expensive. 

Okay, the best part of the trip is that I am able to visit different cities in Australia with the friends. We lost our way together, we find the way together, we find good food together, we meet up with new people, we meet up with high school friends, we argue over little matter and we get closer! 

失败

本来是应该开开心心充分地过最后两个星期的假期。结果我竟然在第三学期的末考FAIL了一科。结果我需要重考。我真的傻眼了当我看到我的成绩竟然有一个‘F’！不是说我是个优秀生没有不及格过，但是我真的不懂这一次我伤心过度的力量从哪里来。我真的沮丧了两天。

我那么的伤心而且伤心了两天，主要是因为我很他妈的的不甘心。我从来没有想过我有这一天。我从来没有想过我会不及格而且还要重考。即使我在怎么差我也没有想过我会要重考而且还是我最讨厌的一科。我真的很不甘心是因为当我想到我之前的努力就像大便一下子就被冲进了粪池。我不甘心是因为平时在班上不见人影的同学竟然及格了！所以我根本不敢相信我这次真的FAIL了！我的心里不平衡到那种我拼命的去转牛角尖，死命的问自己到底是什么原因我失败了。

不管多么的不甘心，我还是乖乖的温习它。

王菀之 我的心真的受伤了

灯光也暗了　音乐低声了

口中的棉花糖也融化了

窗外阴天了　人是无聊了

我的心开始想你了

电话响起了　你要说话了

还以为你心里对我又想念了

怎么你声音变得冷淡了

是你变了　是你变了

灯光熄灭了　音乐静止了

滴下的眼泪已停不住了

天下起雨了　人是不快乐

我的心真的受伤了

电话响起了　你要说话了

还以为你心里对我又想念了

怎么你声音变得冷淡了

是你变了　是你变了

灯光熄灭了　音乐静止了

滴下的眼泪已停不住了

天下起雨了　人是不快乐

我的心真的受伤了

我的心真的受伤了

即使再不甘心 事实还是 无法改变

Hate this.

I hate this - there are so much of thoughts floating in the mind but whenever I wanna express it out with words...everything is gone. 

Tonight, I am feeling a bit more than usual. 

- I miss Jacky Cheung's concert few years back. He is awesome. 
- I haven't been to Jay Chou's concert. 
- I miss home. 
- I wanna talk to someone who will give me advices, bring me laughters and never feel funny/laughing inside about my questions & problems.
- I wanna edit and show my friends my winterbreak photos but I am lazy. 
- I really don't like to sleep alone. 
- I wannna chill in a cozy cafe. 


Most of all, I am feeling kinda sick now. Too much of drinking water debt to pay from the trip. I didn't drink enough of water for the whole week. ;\

Grown up

Always after a long week of vacation, all I wanna be is at home. My home.

This year, this time after a long week and tiring vacation to Sydney and Melbourne...I'm not going home. Not the home I used to go back after a vacation. 

问题天天多

有时候面对着每天面对的人，面对着每天必须面对的问题，面对着必须面对的。。。有时候真的不懂要怎样保持当初的新鲜感来面对一切一切。

#winterbreak

Away. 

TEA

Hibiscus & Raspberry tea.

Too good until I must post pictures non-stop. 

The pretty tea set is just soooooo pretty....ahhh.

The tea tasted okay, very soothing.

BY BLACKBIRD.

#winterbreak

Day 1 (2/7) - We did nothing much. Just went to the city and have a walk. Made sushi at night and it turned out quite good.

Day 2 (3/7)
Woke up early in the morning like 0730 with Kai Yen and went for a jog with Angela as well at Botanic Garden. Jog huh. We must be making fun on ourselves! Our stamina...we got zero stamina. We jogged for about 10 minutes ONLY and then we start to take pictures around the garden and did some light exercise. Bahh I guess I really have to force myself to get back on running...I should. But the weather is damn freaking cold in the morning. Try to jog under 7 degree celcius. :)
Kitt Mun came over to visit, one of my ex-classmate back in high school. We went for brunch and shopping. :) And she is staying over our place for a night, let's call this a girls session.

I love holidays!

在国外读书，在国外遇到的朋友／新朋友，我们都在经历同样的事情如省钱方法，厨艺，学业，想家还有远距离爱情。我们经历的一样也了解彼此的感受，不用给予太多的解释大家都明白因为我们都在同一条路。。。没什么特别意义但是我有点感慨。

人

当人成长了，人与人之间的互相要求就更加的。。。不可理喻。

还是我无法接受？

FREEDOM

Finally I am done with Semester III. (Not yet I guess, have to wait for the results -.-) The last paper was Biochemistry which is also the most stress out paper to me and my fellow friends! We felt so damn freaking superduper relieve after the paper. Now, I've got nothing but time! Metaphor.

Now, I am finally, officially having my first WINTER BREAK!

Gotta list out what I should do and I have to do and what I must do in this 3 weeks time. I am gonna use my time wisely. Heh.

First, plan the trip to Sydney and Melbourne! WOOOHOO.

A bus driver

So today four of us went to a temple which is 1 hour away from the city and that's the one and only Chinese Buddhist temple in South Australia. So yeah, we have no choice we have to travel all the way there but it do worth the travel cause I saw a very good bus driver. 

There was a lady who can't speak English at all and she got lost and she don't know which stop she is suppose to stop. So, she went up to the bus driver and ask but since she can't speak English at all, all I heard was some mumbling or maybe I was sitting too far away but I guess she was really mumbling because the driver got off from his seat and stop at one of the bus stop and faced us the passengers and ask 'anyone speak Kilkenny language?' And he kept asking the lost lady whether she knows the address or street name she is going to. I see that the lady was kinda struggling then she called up someone and the driver talked to the person over the phone but then the person over the phone don't speak we'll English as well so, both of them took up sometime to figure out where is the exact place.

Then, they finally found out the address I guess. The driver showed the direction of the destination for the lost lady. 

So, it's a good day isn't it? :)

            Zhu Lin Buddhist Temple

Sometimes I wonder why do God put me in this position and this situation that I have to fight with my heart, my feeling, my emotion, my thinking, my action, my tongue almost my everything.

Harvard Library

1. Sleep now, dream will come out; Study now, dream will come true.
2. The pain of study is temporary; the pain of not study is lifelong.
3. You do not lack of time to study, you are lacking of efforts. 
4. Study is one but not the only component of your life, but if you cannot even overcome this single component, what can you overcome?
5. Get up early, grind out hardy, gain on success. 
6. Nobody succeeds easily without complete self-control and strong perseverance.
7. Time pass by. 
8. Stop walking today and you will have to run tomorrow. 
9. People who invest the future are the true realists.
10. No pain, no gain. 

Of studying. The pain of studying.

Oh, finals. 

Am so damn stress. 

I am studying because I have to...

brrrrrr.

Indescribable.

Where can I find such music and voice again?

This is just so damn good.

Replay 8462944803 times.

在一起12年。最后分手收场。

关于一小部分的我 信仰

我越来越觉得这个部落格变成了我的日记。我越来越依赖它，收在橱里的日记有三个月没去碰了。可见人们越来越依赖科技！真不不知道是好是坏。刚刚看了我中学Christian Fellowship举办一年一度的camp，忽然想分享我个人对信仰这回事的想法。

我来自一个没有一个specific的信仰的家庭。我爸爸妈妈都不去膜拜任何一个宗教。他们也不会阻止我信奉哪一个宗教。所以在很小的时候我就有跟信奉基督教的邻居到教堂。那时候还很小，所以去教会只是唱唱歌听听圣经里头的故事，就很简单的几个小时。过后我邻居搬家了，但是如果我想去教堂的话，他们都会来载我。你可能会想为什么我爸妈不送我去；我爸妈就没有想参与这些信奉。过后，我断断续续去了教堂有好几年，也参与了教会组办的camp，也交了几个朋友直到今天我还记得他们，但已经没联络了，也换了两间教会。又过后，我邻居又换了教堂，但是我没有，我就待在我第二间的教堂直到现在，又整整十年了。但是这十年来都是断断续续并不是每逢礼拜都会去。但是在前年，我十八十九岁的时候，我的人生来到了目前我认为是最最最最最低潮的时候，我经常一个人哭，经常看不透想不透很多事情。。。也不知道何来的概念，我就打电话给了一位我在教会里混得比较熟悉的阿姨。我很清楚的记得当时的情况，她一拿起电话说了一声‘喂’，我就哭得无法自我，我根本无法言语，只是很努力得在忍着泪水，而她在另一头很紧张的问‘是谁是谁’。。。过了一会儿，我比较平复了就说了我是谁。我跟她坦白了我的烦恼。我也一直哭个不停。她也不停的安慰我开导我。最后，盖电话之前她当然也为我做了一个祷告。然后，我也平复了很多很多。自从那次最难受的时候，我就比较频密地参与教会的活动，也当上了part－time cameraman。我不知道我是从什么时候开始依靠神的力量来生活。我也不记得什么时候开始我每天晚上睡觉前会来个短短简单的祷告。自从那个低潮，我觉得信仰很重要，信仰让任何一个人的思想比较乐观，信仰让一个人的心理比较成熟，信仰让一个人变得更好，信仰让一个人有较好的理念。

我，是还没洗礼。我，是觉得我还没有资格，不够资格，不够心理准备来完完全全信奉他。
这是我的经历而这个经历让我变得更好。我也希望我会不断的进步。

直到现在，我去了那么多年的教堂，我家里也只有我一个人比较信靠基督，我家里没有任何一个人有想跟 我去。只是有时候我会哄哄我弟弟去教堂玩玩。唉，信仰这东西我是觉得不可以勉强。但是！让我最感动的是在去年，应该是去年，我爸带了我们全家去参观去体验了一间规模满大的天主教。我真的有一种莫名的感动。有但是，我爸就去了教堂那么一次。唉。

这全部都是我的看法，我绝对没有针对任何一个信仰。

the more you know about someone, the closer you get with someone, the more you know them, the more you know the real them and that is the time you take time to accept that is their real personality, everything transparent.

and when you find that you can rely them for a long time, believe yourself and forever believe only in yourself.

i think i am getting nearer to the real world. 

kthxbai.

远距离爱情

我甚少在部落格谈自己的感情事。但是我最近真的太懒惰写字了，一本日记在衣橱里积灰尘，所以。。。

我现在，没有单身两年了。我现在，处在一段远距离爱情。

这段远距离的感情维持了三个月。爱情，两个人在一起，两个来自不同背景的人走在一起本来就不简单；现在，又是远距离，这段感情更是比‘近距离爱情’来得艰难了。这三个月来，一开始我的确有被动摇，我还没来到澳洲也有想过，到底应不应该继续这段暂时看不见未来的感情，我应不应该放手，应不应该放弃这一段我和他一起努力的感情。。。最后，我决定了，我要继续这一段感情。身边有位亲人告诉我，十段远距离爱情会有九段是失败的，包括他在内。然而，我还是决定了我的决定。我不想想太多，只想好好维持这一段我有份参与的感情，有我的努力，我的泪水，他的努力，他的泪水，我不可以轻易放弃这段感情。即使现在我们在不同方向，但是我相信只要有情在，有心，这段感情并不会那么容易破裂。更何况，未来有谁看得到啊？未来是个未知数。就让我好好赌一把吧。

现在，我只可以祈求上帝的呵护，呵护我，呵护他，呵护我们的感情。
每天睡前，我都把这放进祷告里，希望我们能够好好经营这段爱情。

关于一小部分的 我

音乐，可以让一个人开心，伤心，心酸等等。音乐，它拥有一个很强大的力量。音乐，在我的生活里也扮演了重要的角色。当我难过／生气／开心的时候，会听听我喜欢的歌。有些歌听了几年都不会腻。有些歌，听了一次就会留在脑海里。有些歌，让我听了很伤感。有些歌，听了会让我想起一些人事物。所以，音乐的确有着很强的影响力。 

我最近发现我个人非常非常非常喜欢听一些比较情绪的歌。不论是英文或是华语，我都比较喜欢有情绪的歌。我不懂原因。但是只要我不开心也好，开心也好都会去选择听听很伤感的歌。我就喜欢那种旋律吧。

昨天，我听了杨宗伟满新的新歌，叫《忘了我》。我猜我应该听上了几十次哈哈。那首歌真的很伤感。不妨去YouTube试听，如果你也和我一样喜欢类似的歌曲。

然后，我最近也迷上了《曾经太年轻》，《该忘了》，《不是说好了》，《雨天》，《眼泪成诗》，《雨是甜的》等等。光看歌名就懂它们都是属于比较有情绪，比较有眼泪的歌。

去听听吧！ 忘了我－杨宗伟

First birthday in Adelaide

From the left: Wilson, Iris, Pooja, Ern, Wanying, Angela, Cher

Sitting: Yen, myself, Lily 

Thank you for the surprise and dinner and desserts. 

Shall update later. 

I am dead tired, only had 3 hours of sleep yesterday. 

如果我们分开了，理由不会是我们不再爱双方。 

生日，快乐吗？

生日，我好快乐。

Old school的惊喜。简单的晚餐。简单但是非常有用的礼物。

我，很爽了！

但是，往往快乐的时光都非常短暂。

又要赶功课了。唉。

朋友的责任

心底善良，好心肠，绝对没有错反而是个美德。

但是，好心肠的心态真的不要滥用！这是我的看法。你对人好，是好事，绝对是好事。但是，你在对人好的时候，亏待了自己，这样算什么？好，可能你并没有这样觉得，算我多心多事。即使是我多事，是因为我身为一个朋友，应该要做的事吧。我可真不想看到你受委屈，把自己累得不清不出。这样让我觉得，你的再好心只会让我觉得很反感。

还是那一句，你不爱自己怎么好好爱别人呢？

爱自己多一点，没错。

这算是朋友的责任吗？

学习中

你真的不用那么直接；直接把我给打败；直接带我进入超级尴尬的状态；直接带我进入我无法言语的一刻。你真的不用那么直接。

可能是我太小气。可能是我太在意。可能是我没有把自己的人格给看清。可能我无法接受你所说的我真的是我。可能我对自己每信心。可能我真的肚量很小很小。

可是，你真的把我给打败了。那一秒，你真的。。。赢了。

学习学习。吸收吸收。接受接受。消化消化。进步进步。

唉。

释怀

一直无法释怀那件事情。一直一直无法释怀，隔了那么多天。。。还是无法释怀。我不喜欢这样的我但是我无法自拔。

关于 爱

关于 爱。

柠檬的酸；
蜂蜜的甜；
分手的苦；
辣椒的辣；

都是爱情里的元素。
都是爱情里的主角。
都可以在一段恋情尝到。

怎么爱和不爱你可以变得如此复杂？
怎么爱和不爱了可以让人那么烦恼？

这是个没答案的问题。

所以说，凡事接触到感情，都很难解释。

唉。晚安了。

Short update

Finally, mid term examination is over! Hallelujahhhh! I feel so free, I feel so happy inside out! I can finally do whatever I like to do after classes or I can even enjoy doing nothing!

Yes, exam is over but that means finals is nearer and assignments due dates are nearer too. So, I guess I can only relax and enjoy doing nothing for these few days. I am going to enjoy doing nothing!

Picture worth a thousand words

The day Siew Ern, my housemate, my classmate and my friend decided to thank us for taking care of her and helping her around when she sprained her ankle. So, she made us brunch. Very very filling brunch. So much of love. :) 

Glenelg beach visit. 

The day the Hong Kees classmate decided to have a SPONTANEOUS potluck dinner at my place. The day we have more desserts than main course and end up, some of them got sugar ush and gone very high! 

We put on a bet on what colour is this shirt and my team lose and we have to buy the winners Gong Cha! Fyi, I say this is PURPLE, not BLUE. I teamed with Lily and Angela while Yen, Pooja and Ern Blue team.

SAN CHURRO. - overrated. 

Winter is coming! Looking for a thicker coat for myself and this cost $80. Lily said I can get something better with that price. Hence, I am still looking around! Hopefully I get an ideal one before winter comes.

Siew Ern the master chef at home. She loves to try out new food and this is it! - CHAR SIEW. Way better than Hong Fatt at Chinatown please!

Botanic Garden with Siew Ern. Super huge garden. 

7 hours before biochem mid term exam. 

A Thursday night with the Hong Kees and Zona for dinner and dessert after a hectic lab session! We were to smell rumen, cow's rumen. -_-

Sum up my mid term break and recent life I guess. 

义工 - Volunteer

今天是我和小丽第一次参与义工。这义工是我去的那间教堂主办的。

这一次的义工，短短的一个小时，真的让我大开眼界。我看见了我平时看不见得人事物。我当下的心情很复杂，除了复杂没有其他词可以形容。这一次的工作其实满简单，就是把准备好的南瓜汤和甜点盛给那些无家可归或是有毒瘾或是酒瘾的男女老少。是的，是男女老少。简单来说就是教会的会友准备了一些食物给又需要的人－free food。这次的参与有很多我的第一次，第一次把食物放在tray上成给人吃，第一次和我完全没有见过的人微笑，第一次服侍我不认识的人。起初，我真的很担心我无法把五六个碗放在tray上捧给人。我想万一我把全部的汤水给弄翻了，我就真的太对不起大家了。但其实没有那么困难。

今天早上便开始下起了长命雨，直到中午雨还是一直下，所以今天出席的人比较少，只有二三十个左右。听Gemma说，平时没有下雨来得人可以高达六十个。我们稍微准备了一切，大概1145am，就有人开始走进了为他们准备的食堂。

我看见了有很多很多老人。大概有我外公的年龄。他们有的脸上不挂一丝笑容，有的一见到你便笑笑打招呼，有的吵着要食物，有的开始和我们聊天但大部分我们都不懂他在说什么，有的很有礼貌，有的很开心的在聊天大笑但是嘴里时不时会抛出一句粗口，有的还叫我们一起做下来喝汤，有的总共喝了三碗南瓜汤，有的一直跟你说谢谢，有的会在你帮他收拾碗碟跟你说“that's lovely“，有的还会叫你一声”darling“，有的笑起来真的很可爱，有的很贪心一直要很多很多PIE。

有三位老人让我影响特别深刻。有一位在离开前还会把椅子推到桌子下，有一位老人一个人坐在餐桌上但显得非常开心还和教堂的负责人聊的很欢喜，有一位老人跟我和小丽说了一堆我们听不懂的事情，真的又可爱又好笑。

他们有的其实都很有礼貌。他们不会我们想象中的可怕。他们其实真的只需要多一点点的关怀。他们只要填饱肚子。他们最需要爱。

我，领悟了很多。

heartbreaking

First - #prayforboston

Then - #prayforhuiwen 

These heartbreaking incidents have to stop! The heartbreakers should stop doing evil things! 

#prayforboston

Two bombs were release at a charity run at Boston on Monday. 2 died and more than 200 were injured. 

One man who really really caught my eyes was Jeffrey Bauman. He was one of the victim in the incident and his photo is spread in Facebook. He lost his both legs below the knees due to the explosion. He is only 27 years old. Then, there were two little young kids who ran for this charity run passed away. Enough said. 

Nobody knows the motive. Nobody knows why. People run for good but the lost their life. Explanation, please? 

He lost his both legs. I am sure his daily life will be totally effected. I am sure he will go through a tough time, a long one perhaps. The parents lost their kids, I am not sure how sad would the parents, relatives and friends will be.  

The bombers were brothers, 19 years old and 26 years old. That even make me confuse, a 19 years old guy, at such a young age...he bomb the city and he escaped. His brother died due the severe injuries. 

#paryforhuiwen 

I got this heartbreaking news once I got up from my bed. 

Hui Wen, a 17 years old girl saw her mom died in front of her because the robbers stabbed her mom thrice. Enough said. 

#prayfortheWORLD

Feeling

I am here and my heart is at home.

I still care for my mother, father, sister and brother.

I still care every little thing happens at home.

But somehow, my mother wouldn't wanna let me know more about it.

Yeah, she wants me to concentrate on my studies here and care less about things at home.

But I want to know.
I don't wanna miss anything that happens at home.
I don't wanna feel that I am left out when I am back.

Ok, maybe I am thinking too much again.
But sometimes when my mother trying to tell less about something...
I feel a little sad inside.

She told me to enjoy my life here, appreciate these coming 2 years here to experience life with my heart. Yeah, I told myself too but I still feel like my heart is at home.

Hmm. I feel that I am lucky to be here at times but sometimes I still feel like I miss home a lot.

Maybe I should experience everything here with my heart.

Thank you, ma. I miss you.

Rant

Rant - To speak aggressively. 

Yes, I am going to rant about something. Something related closely to myself. Something related to my own gender. Something related to girls. And I think I am going to gain haters from this post and less readers too. Haha! Whatever it is, I am going to rant rant rant and rant before I get immune to this sickening thing in my mind.

I am going to use vulgar words because like that only got FEEEL. Bahahah!

"Fuck my hormones." - Mary via twitter.
"Fuck PMS, Fuck hormones!" - Jooey via Facebook.

Yeah, I bet most of you see these kind of fucking hormones status on any social media. I wanna say, I fucking hate it when I see all these. I fucking hate. Like seriously, your fucking hormones ruin your fucking mood and you really don't have to fucking release your fucking emotion on other people. Seriously, you don't have to do that. That's so childish and that is not cool at all please. Please, fucking not cool.

So, if your in PMS mood or your bloody hormones ruin your mood, keep to yourself and only yourself.
Don't release it out to the people beside you, the innocent people around you. And if you did release on your friend or people around you, don't fucking blame your hormones, blame yourself instead! You are the one who control your hormones. If your happy, happy hormones will be released in your body and if your moody, moody hormones will be in your body. As simple as that. Be responsible on your own act, please stop blaming your hormones.

If you really feel that hormones are the one who ruin your mood. Tell someone. Don't tell the whole world for God sake. That's nothing to be proud of it. You think youself got hormones ahh?! You think other people no hormones ah?! You think your hormones very geng very big la now!? I really don't get it. You can tell me personally. I listen and I will shut up. That's better, don't you think so? Posting online about your hormones is not cool at all! It is so sickening!

Yes, you might say "You don't have hormone meh?" or "You think you say like that you very geng ah?You never get angry one mehhh!?" I do get angry at times but I never thought of blaming my hormones. I blame myself for not being able to control myself, I blame myself for not having high EQ, I don't blame my hormones! My hormones are fine!

Yeah, fuck hormones? Fuck your EQ please. 

Now I feel better, much more better but I feel like I am such a bitch. Lol.

沟通

"人和人的溝通　有時候沒有用" - 《想自由》林宥嘉

想念

现在正在巴士上去上课。耳朵听着我爱的歌；脑海忽然想念着很多人，想着很多我想去做的疯狂事情。

我想念的朋友。我想念的教堂。我想念的嘛嘛档。我想念的泰来湖边大学。我想念的。。。很多。

而我想做的是来个疯狂到极点的疯狂派对！我想去狂欢一番！但是想了又想，身在这好像没有人会愿意陪我去这种派对吧。呵呵。想想就好。想想也很过瘾。

sing the lazy song.

I've got tons of things to do:
Online quiz
Presentation preparation
Lab report
Assignments due end of this month.

First, hello to April. It's my mom's month! Celebrated her birthday through Skype. I wish my mother all the best in everything, may God bless her every second, may her wardrobe fill with her lovely clothes, may she be healthy all the time and I miss her. :')

Next, two weeks ago, I went to a 2D1N camp with my course mates, to Aldinga. Aldinga is a suburb of city of Onkaparinga in SA. Beautiful beach, strong wind, strong wave and the lecturer who brought us there went for a swim in the huge wave. I was really shock so do my friends. Before heading to Aldinga, we dropped by at Hahndorf, a German village. I kinda like that place but I think it's a very dead and quiet village. Anyhow, it is a beautiful and peaceful place. We had our lunch at Otto's Bakery. And guess what! We don't have to come out any cent, Dr Carolyn paid everything for us, from drink to food to desserts. We were so happy so in the end, 5 of us (Lily, Ern, Yen, Angela and myself) ordered 4 different types of desserts, sandwiches and drinks. And also, in the end we didn't manage to finish everything of course. But we force ourselves to finish up the desserts. The desserts were damn gooood especially the Vanilla thingy. Then, after the lunch and beach, we go to our staying place, Aldinga Holiday Park. And guess what! Ern sprained her ankle while jumping happily on a trampoline and turned out quite bad. Swollen right foot and can't walk. Yeahhh.....After some rest and Dr Carolyn's help on Ern's foot, we go for dinner at a very cozy restaurant. The restaurant serves PIZZAS, free flow pizzas and a few bottles of white and red wine Dr Carolyn bought in the noon when we were at a vineyard. At the very moment, I wish the time could stop! The cozy pizza bar with great atmosphere and great people and great wine and great music and great weather..ahh, great combination.  I know it would be even better if there is a live band there playing music!

Things I wish to do in Aussie:
1. I wanna go to a pub/bar with live band! I love live band I love live music!
2. Travel around Australia.
3. Get a part time job so I can get extra pocket money and so I can do more shopping!

Blah. That's about it. Gonna do my quiz now.
Will continue the camp soon or I will blog more about my life in Aussie. :)

Ciaoz.

学习

现在，应该是时候，也是一个很适当承认我是一个非常冲动的人。我一点都不冷静。我的忍耐极限低到可怜。我很快就会被激怒。我很快的就会做出一些很冲动的决定然后后悔的不得了。

一直以来，我真的是个直肠直肚的人，想到什么就说什么，伤害了人有时候还不懂。有些人会觉得我很有个性，有些人应该在偷偷的讨厌我吧。哈哈！有时候我真的很讨厌我这个很有个性的性格，有话直说没什么错啊，这是我曾经很年轻的时候的想法，现在长大了一点，有话直说并不是一件很光荣的事。可能在适当的时候，有话直说真的会让人佩服，但是，如果在错的时候，有话直说只会让人觉得很反感。

最近，我在学习忍耐。可是，我要宣布我失败了。最后，我还是有话直说，祸从口出了。结果，我忍着泪水收拾我的烂摊子。忍，真的真的不是我的强项，但是，我真在学习。或许不是说凡事都要忍，应该说凡事都要看开一点，心胸放大一点，那么事情就会变得小一点自然的问题也会越来越少那么生活就很快乐！哈哈哈！

人嘛，时时刻刻都在学习。

还有，一句对不起，该说的时候就不要吝啬。

想没有通

唉。我真的想不通。

最近，面试了一份兼职。是在一间规模满大的杂货店打工。
那女人问我，我想在那一个部门做。我便告诉她说，我想攻服务客人的部门。因为我比较喜欢和人说话，我想见到人，我不想在仓库里搬东西。
然后，她便简略的告诉我，服务客人应该要懂的事还有我需要去做的工作。
除了洗厕所，其他的任务我都很OK。

洗厕所。
嗯，这份工作我从上个星期五想到今天，还拿不定注意。就因为她说了那三个字。
唉，我还满懊恼的！怎么我那么拿不定注意！怎么我那么弱！怎么我那么没胆！怎么我那么计较！
就因为这个原因，我大概问上了好几个朋友。有的叫我去试一试可能不是想象中的糟糕，有的叫我算了吧再找另一分工作。

或许，我应该去试一试。趁我还年轻。。。还有多余的力量去消耗。哈！
而且这分工的薪水很高！18澳币一小时，代表一小时可以赚马币57令吉！我真的发大财了如果我接这分工！

啊。我想，我就接了它吧！
啊。我想，我还要再想！

犹豫

一个我从不明白的感觉 － 犹豫。

有时，我会犹豫要不要继续写部落格。
有时，我会犹豫我做的那个决定是否真确，会不会对我不利。
有时，我会犹豫我对她或则他是否带着真诚的心。
有时，我会犹豫我应不应该相信某人说的话。

有时，犹豫的事情都很多很多。。。
这些的犹豫，其实都是多余。

犹豫了过后，部落格还是继续写。即使没有读者，有我这个读者。
犹豫了过后，决定已经下了，所以还是得把那件事给完成。
犹豫了过后，明明就很真诚对待他人，但是就是犹豫影响了思想，变成了一个我不认识的我。
犹豫了过后，我应该相信我该相信的人。

犹豫，你真的会影响我的思想。
所以，请你离我远一点。

Never know it was THAT sad!

I've been here for 3 weeks, almost a month and now, I would like to blog about 3 weeks ago when I was in Kuala Lumpur International Airport.

Before I fly here, I told myself not to cry. You know, when people are leaving for studies, then the friends and family with definitely cry. I do not want to cry. I told myself not to cry and I keep it in mind.

On the day I fly, my family, my grandma, my grandpa, my boyfriend, my uncles and aunties and cousins and a few secondary and uni mates came to say a goodbye to me and friends. My second aunt actually hugged me very tight. Hmm, 她看着我长大叻。So yeah, we were quite close. Then, my grandma hugged me too and she cried and I ALMOST CRY but I control myself. My boyfriend hugged me......ahhh.

Apparently, my daddy and my mummy never hug me! Hahahaha! I guess they were TOO SCARED to hug me. My mum is one tough mother, I don't know why she NEVER cry, so very the steady! Kai Yen's mum cried and Siew Ern's mum cried but my mom's eyes are not even red. BUT, when I was about to check in, going down the escalator to the custom check, I saw my mom from upstairs swinging her hand very hard to say goodbye to me. I don't know whether should I laugh or cry. Then, my dad, he is tough as usual. No tears but keep advising me to study hard, study hard and study hard. Yes, I will. Then, my boyf, he was about to cry too when reminding me what to do once I reached Australia and some advises (He is always that fatherly) but I told him not to cry. Because if someone starts to cry, I will start crying and everyone will cry. So yeah, better not cry at the first place.

Yes, I told myself not to cry but when I was about to take the escalator down to the custom check I cried. The tears flow down from my eyes and I don't know how and why and the tears keep falling from my eyes. Lol. That was the moment my friends and I cried like big babies. Then we looked at each other and we started to laugh at each other. Hah! So memorable.

I thought I will not cry but I cried.
I never know leaving will be THAT sad. 

Will definitely meet up with you guys soon! xo.

金玉良言

我妈告诉我说，没有人有义务对你好除了你爸爸和妈妈。 

I feel joy.

I feel joy. I am over joy I guess. I just came back from church. I visited my very first church ever since I came to Adelaide. The church I visited - Holy Trinity. I got to know this church from a guy, Gary from Overseas Christian Fellowship. Holy Trinity is a very old and traditional church. Things are going slowly not like the modern ones with some sort of "rock&roll".

So how I find this church? 
I find it comfortable. Its just that the church is freakingggggg hot. They only provide wall fans and the fans are not near to you or me. It's on top...like near the ceiling. And its summer here. So yes, the whole service I felt like I was in a big oven. Anyhow, the mass wasn't long like what I had back in Malaysia. It took up about 30 minutes which is short. Then, after the service, Aunty Ching cooked dinner for the international students. How lucky! She is the cook there and she is indeed very nice. The foods are good too! I met a few Singaporean during the dinner session and they are nice. :)

Ok, basically it's a good day. Throw away all the rubbish in my mind and I am filled with joy and happiness and love! Hallelujah. 

ONLINE BANKING

Now, I am in Aussie studying abroad. Hence, I have to manage my tuition fees and other fees by myself. Oh god, I have to say OH GOD! I never know how to do online banking...I never know. The reason is because when I was back in Malaysia, there is NO NEED to worry; because my mommy will settle everything for me and my daddy too and my daddy. So, back then, all I needed to do is STUDY and PLAY. There's no reason for me to worry about my fees, how much are my fees, how must the fees be settle whether through cash/credit card/debit card/cheque or online. I never need to worry. Now, everything is different. I need to manage things myself. My phone bill, my tuition fees and my hostel fees. 

Just an hour ago, I was figuring out how the hell can I pay my tuition fees and my phone bills. I almost die........Now, everything is almost settle. I am paying some of my bills online and some through post office.

Ok, long story short. I survived. Thanks to my Zhu Wei. He is more familiar with online banking stuffs.  

One damn good thing, I finally know how online banking works! Anyhow, I still don't trust online banking 100%. I feel that is dangerous. Hmm, I got this from my dad I guess. Heh. 

I did once online shopping and got warning from daddy. Hoho. 

xo. 

眼睛

在澳洲有两个星期了，现在就分享我在这两个星期所看到的人事物吧。

1. 街头表演在这非常普遍而且很有水准。有一位拉小提琴的四十出头的中国先生满吸引大家的目光。还有两个黑人的表演也很特别。伸头去看看他们的钱筒还真的装着满满的钱耶。有时候还看到一张五十令吉！
2. 我差不多每天都会碰到神智不清的人。男女老少都遇上了。还真的满奇怪的。
3. 这里的老师都很开放，上课的时候都可以用上出口。 
4. 这里的残障人士都很受注重。公共车上都有为他们准备了特别位置给他们。 
5. 这里的小女生穿的背心的袖口很大, 大到可以看穿里面的东东。。。

就这么多啦。头脑想不到了。有点累。

开始上课这两天都打瞌睡。糟了糟了。

Fair

I again believe God is fair.

Today, it's a good day. It's absolutely a good day. I got a lot of freebies and played some games in university's O' week (Orientation week). I even got a sunglasses from the windows 8 booth. Awesome right! So it's definitely a good day to my friends and I.

But, whenever there are too many good things happen around us the bad ones will come along.


First, Siew Ern, Kai Yen and I walked to a store with closing down sales cuz we were planning to get ourself a windbreaker. And guess what and who we met? Flasher. Bad.

Then, I wanted to wash the toilet and I forgotten if I just splash a bucket of water to the floor, the water will flow out straight to outside to the carpet. So I did it. The carpet is wet wet wet. And so you know., wet carpet will gives out unpleasant smell if we don't dry it. So lily and yen helped me out to dry it up by using hair dryer. Guess what! The hair dryer was too damn hot...hello, sparkles. Scary shit. So in the end we use cloths to dry it up.

That's why I again believe God is fair.

Hello from Adelaide.

Okay, how do I start?

I am here in Australia, Adelaide with 3 other friends with the same dream - to graduate from University of Adelaide major in Food and Nutrition Science. Four of us landed on the land of Adelaide last Sunday morning with heavy heads. We didn't get to sleep in the plane as the plane just don't make us feel right but I think Lily did sleep like a pig. Hah! Ok, so we reached Adelaide airport, looking for our names on anyone's hand to bring us to our hostel. Apparently, we don't see our name. Hmm got quite panic...but everything was fine after a while when we found Selina from Uni of Adelaide. Selina was in charged to arrange a van to bring us to our hostel, The Village.

Checked in.
First impression - good place to live but pricey. I didn't know its pricey until I met some people who got cheaper stay. So we are planning to find a house and move out next year. Hopefully we got an ideal house to stay in.

Before I even reach Adelaide, the first big problem I thought of; scared of and worry of is sleeping. I never like sleeping alone in a room and I never like to sleep with lights off. I am afraid of darkness and ghost. Hahaha! Yeah, laugh all you want cuz I myself is laughing while I type out. Yes, one of the biggest challenge I will face this year. Brr. The first night I wanted to sleep with Kai Yen but I was kinda shy...everyone has got a single bed so yeah. I lied beside Yen for a while then I went to my own room, forcing myself to sleep alone with LIGHTS ON. I really feel a little better that way. :D So, first night I survived cuz I have not sleep for about 24hours. But the second night, I couldn't stand the 500km/h heart pumping when I am sleeping alone in my room so, I slept with Yen. Hehe. I feel good in fact. I feel safe! That was the first and last time I sleep with Yen for that week. The next few days I sleep with myself with lights on.

Four of us got an apartment unit, just nice for four of us. Four rooms, a living room, a kitchen, 3 toilets and a dining room. One thing that I wanna roll my eyes is that the things are not complete lah. I thought everything will be complete. We don't have pillow and blanket in our room and the weather is turning cold. So, we quickly take a bus down to Rundle Mall and lucky us saw a closing down sales selling their quilts, bed sheets, pillow and etc. So yeah, we got what we need to keep us comfortable and warm at night.

Oh yeah, we had our first lunch in Chinatown. Worst meal ever. Fried chicken? More like fried flour. Bahh.

Stay tune for more.

P/S: I didn't plan to write so much. A friend of mine sort of motivated me to do so.

Byes.