Feeling

I am here and my heart is at home.

I still care for my mother, father, sister and brother.

I still care every little thing happens at home.

But somehow, my mother wouldn't wanna let me know more about it.

Yeah, she wants me to concentrate on my studies here and care less about things at home.

But I want to know.
I don't wanna miss anything that happens at home.
I don't wanna feel that I am left out when I am back.

Ok, maybe I am thinking too much again.
But sometimes when my mother trying to tell less about something...
I feel a little sad inside.

She told me to enjoy my life here, appreciate these coming 2 years here to experience life with my heart. Yeah, I told myself too but I still feel like my heart is at home.

Hmm. I feel that I am lucky to be here at times but sometimes I still feel like I miss home a lot.

Maybe I should experience everything here with my heart.

Thank you, ma. I miss you.