memories are annoying II

I think I am annoying now. 

bah, don't care. 

today, someone said bff need not to be show, it is deeply in our heart. 

Hmm well said. I guess I have to agree. 

I do have a few friends where we don't talk so often yet we are still feeling close to each other. 

Just a few. 

I agree and disagree, actually. 

The reason I still feel close to them even though we don't talk much or contact each other often is because that we put effort on our friendship. 

Let's not talk about everyday. 

Just talk about initiative. 

Initiative, is important in any relationship, be it boy girl relationship or just plainly friendly. 

We take initiative to talk to each other once in a while. 

We know we will be there whenever we need someone. 

We know. 

It's the chemistry. 

And, before the chemistry happen between us, there is effort. 

But, some people just don't give a shit on initiative and effort. 

They will be like, why should I find you when you don't. 

Ok, so what if I find you all the freaking times and you never take initiative and always saying that 'I don't contact you doesn't mean I don't care' kind of bullshit. You think our friendship will be strong when I am the only one who always take initiative? 

Have you heard of one sided love? 

Yes, that's it. 

Alright alright, I might be a little too sensitive. 

Maybe I am. 

Because I care. 

Because I am not selfish as fuck. 

Because I am not that kind of 'I don't contact you doesn't mean I don't care' (as if I know you care when you don't contact me lol). Human beings are just funny at times. Also, ridiculous. 

People tend to create something so funny to protect them and thinking they very cool like that. 

I very beh tahan. Sorry. 

Anyway, this is something to learn in life. 

After all your studying life in schools or universities. 

You will get to see so much this kind of shit happen around you. 

Well, shit happens lol. 

Then, you will know clearly who is the one you can trust and rely on when you are in deep shit. 

Then, you know how annoying this shit can be. 

Then, you will know you shouldn't put so damn much of effort on someone when they don't give a shit. 

Then, you will know, friends are only friends and you will also know at the very end of the everyday, you have yourself to trust and be strong no matter what. 

Coz this is how the world rolls yo. 

Stay strong peeeeeps. 

Don't give shit on people who don't give a shit on your effort and time. 

Memories can be a pain in the ass. 
aih.