Life

I am a bit confused(again). 

Ugh fml. 

Every morning I drag my tired body asleep mind to work, that's not what I want. 

I want to wake up to work happily and excited every morning! 

I tried to convince myself at least I have a job now and also go for it! 

But nope, nope, it is not working. 

I am so sleepy everyday, every morning, ever first few hours at work. 

I don't feel the excitement at work which sucks! 

Compared to the previous job I always wake up excited and I always have plan a flowchart for myself before I reach work but nope, not today ughh. 

I am wondering...

Is it because I don't really like my current job? 

Is it because I am lazy already? 

Is it because I wanna do something else? 

Is it because...etc. 

I have the urge that tell me to do something else! To do something I like! To do something that I will wake up to every morning! 

But things are not easy.

It is not even close to easy when I am in a foreign country, when I am only a temporary resident...too much restrictions, too many. 

But ok...let's try to be positive anyways. 

I will do whatever that is in my hand for now and I will move on again once I really settle down. 

Or maybe I should JUST DO IT and FIGHT FOR IT?