Mix Feeling

I was filling in the university application forms - University of Adelaide, RMIT, UniSA etc.
I was having mixed feeling.
I was thinking, I will be very happy if I get offer from Adelaide (my first choice for my current course).
I was thinking, I will be quite sad if I get a rejection letter from any of them especially Adelaide.
I was thinking, I will be feeling a little of heart broken in the same time if I got an offer letter.

I was thinking, will we make it through?
Long distance relationship has never been my choice. Never.
But if I really get to Adelaide, I can never run away from this.
Since the day I am with him, I wish for a long lasting relationship.
Who like LDR in fact? Who go through LDR successfully? I don't see a lot of examples.

I was thinking, will my parents be good in homeland?
I am worry of my dad's diet, health, work and temper.
I am worry about my mom's everything. She is soft-hearted. She is just too good. If ever anyone in the house never think with the brain...this house will be chaotic.
I am worry about my brother's studies. He is one typical boy.
I am worry about my sister. The most. Too long story to write here how much I care her and a little too much that even I can't stand.

mixed feeling.

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