Why am I still there?

I've been to university for about 7 months already. I still miss college life; I miss the classmates in college, so damn much. It;s not like I don't have any friends in uni. I have. I have a bunch of them, as crazy as me, as funny as me. I am grateful to have them. Life in uni is much more tougher than in college. The reports are killer. The assignments are still ok to handle, well trained during college. I miss my college Physics lecturer, Mr Ng even thought I totally suck in Physics! I miss him after looking the pictures in a friend's fb. I miss my Maths lecturer also! Gah, I basically miss everything in college. College is the best time in my life.

Why am I still there? My heart my mind I meant.

One more thing I miss a lot. I miss someone. I miss a girl. I miss my high school breast friend, Cat. I don't know how we get so close. I can't remember. I always do stupid things and I love doing it with her. We even pretended to be lesbian in Genting Theme Park, acted wet kiss on the ride then people start to pointing at us. Yes, we are that crazy. I miss everything we do. I miss her so much. I miss playing around with her. We are still under the same uni but we seldom see each other. She is busy with her studies/club; I am busy with studies/reports/assignments. Sometimes, life sucks. We seldom talk. We seldom go out together. It has been some time that we hang out together...it has been some time, really. She is moving on in her life, she never stops meeting new people, she is damn out going, she is damn active outside...

why am I still there? 


Life has to go on. It has to go on, no matter what.
Nothing is slowing down. 
I have to move.